Blaze's POV
I walk to the chair the Goddess asked me to sit in and take a seat. I immediately launch into my apology.
"I'm so very sorry for how I've been up till now, hurting my mate the way I had. The arrogance that I felt towards everyone and the all around unacceptable behavior that I had. I understand if I'm no longer allowed to enter the eternal forest upon my death," my voice cracks knowing I will be forever barred from entering our version of heaven.
"Blaze, even though Walker and you are now two separate beings that doesn't mean that you are no longer one of my children. You will always be one of my children unless I say otherwise." She says in a calm voice and I burst into tears.
I try hiding my face but she stands from her chair and embraces me, rubbing my back and telling me to let's my sadness go.
I'm not sure how long I cried but when I was done she sat in her chair again.
"As penance I want you to help train your baby brother to be a great Alpha, be his guide so that he doesn't stray from the path of light. Help train the pack to be strong, even though you can no longer be a wolf you are still a strong capable warrior."
Hearing her say that brings tears to my eyes again but in happiness this time.
"Yes I will help our pack, and my brother when he is ready to learn. I will do whatever it takes to make sure that he's the best Alpha he can be. That he doesn't go down the path I did. I will train our warriors to be strong and our young to love and respect their mates when they find them. To be proud to have been given someone to love and have that person love them in return," I vow.
The Moon Goddess smiles and nods her head, "I look forward to seeing how your training sessions go, I have a feeling you're going to be well received."
I hope she's right, that I can live up to the expectations of those around me, that I can redeem myself.
I wake feeling better than I have in a very long time. It feels like I was in a dark cave and finally found my way out.
Looking around I see Walker laying next to me, he's been keeping close to me trying to comfort me. I miss being one with him but now he can have a better life, one he may not have had with me.
Turning to my otherside I see Dajaa curled up there trying to keep me warm. I've worried them both so much, I wonder if they will always stay by me or wish to travel? Now that I have a purpose again I don't want to hold them back, but I will miss them if they go. I just hope that they come to see me from time to time.
My movements woke up Walker, "are you alright?" He asks licking me.
"Yeah I'm doing better sorry for worrying you so much," I rest my head on his while rubbing behind his ears. I remember we both loved that when I was in wolf form.
"Are you sure you feel better?" He asks me and I nod.
"So what are your plans now?" I ask curiously but I can feel it, they will be wanting to leave soon.
"We have a trip planned but we're not going anywhere for a while so stop giving me that sad look," Walker nuzzles me and I can breathe again.
"Man when did I become such a baby?" I say with a chuckle/ sob.
"You were always one you just hid it under false bravado and five feet of crap," Dajaa says sitting up.
"Morning to you too Dajaa," I say and she comes and lays on my lap, she is so NOT a lap dog.
*knock knock*
"Yes"
"It's mom can I come in?" Her voice is slightly muffled by the door.
"Yeah"
The door opens and she comes in with my baby brother in her arms. "How are you feeling today son?" She asks genuinely concerned about me.
"I'm better than I have been in what feels like forever, I talked to the Moon Goddess last night... I'm going to be training our warriors and other pack members to be able to protect themselves. Also when he's ready, my baby brother. So that he can be the best Alpha he can be, and I will guide him so that he doesn't stray from the path of light."
"Are you sure that's what you want?" My mom asks and I smile.
"Its the task the Goddess has given me and I'm honored to have it."
I can see the pride and happiness that my mom has for me awakening again in her eyes, something I thought had been lost forever.
"I'm happy for you son," she says and I feel as if I'm floating I haven't received praise in forever. Not that it goes to my head but I feel it in my heart.
Who would have thought I could change so much within such a short time. I was getting ready to thank my mom when my stomach growls embarrassingly loud making them all laugh.
"Finally he's hungry!" Walker says with a wolfy grin.
Truth be told I don't remember the last time I ate ANYTHING.
"Let's go get some breakfast I heard they were making pancakes, eggs, toast, potatoes, and bacon." Mom smiles.
"Bacon I'm sold!" I say trying not to dump Dajaa on the floor as I scramble to get up.
"Slowdown it's not going anywhere!" She grumbles as she rolls off me.
"I'm just happy he's hungry for once," Walker gets up padding towards the door my mom following.
I feel as if I'm getting to start my life over again, I just wish Artemis and I could start again too. Perhaps in another life we could have grown old together and been happy.
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Split Spirit
WerewolfWhat happens when your wolf hates you? Not only that but your mate, the one made specifically to love you can't stand you, but your wolves love each other? Well this is the story of how I took my fate in my own hands to free myself and to let them b...
