•Fʟʏɴɴ's Pᴏᴠ•
Only thirty minutes had pass and I did a lot of stupid stuff within those thirty minutes. For instance I sat on the floor and banged my head against my wall for a good five minutes while crying. I'm pretty positive that I'm going to have a major headache now. I stared at my home screen for fifteen minutes while crying my eyes out even more than before while looking at the picture of me and booker laughing the day before our date happened. After that I spent ten minutes writing lyrics.
The first one I wrote was about what happened today with me and booker, the second one was about a pizza I think...it was just mainly random things put together. Ray, carlos, and julie went out shopping for the house. Ray asked did I want to go but I just told him that I had work to do and he understood. I had just wrote the last question mark to Booker's song and slightly smiled to myself.
I found the keys on my mini piano that I wanted to use and looked over the song again before singing it.
Not gonna lie, my chest is tighter than before
Yeah it was me, but why am I lying on the floor?
I never thought I'd be the one to give it up
But then I felt too much then didn't feel enough
And I know that
my head's been racing,
I don't do well with replacing
Kinda jealous, kinda faking all
And the thought of you with someone else
Made me wanna prove myself
By putting up another stupid wall
So I'm sorry if I'm kinda mad
It's maybe cuz I cared
I thought it wouldn't hurt me bad
But maybe I was scared
And I've been doing bigger things
But you're still everywhere
It's not fair
Something 'bout you makes me go insane and there's something making that okay
Yeah I know I shouldn't feel this way
But maybe you feel the same?
Not gonna lie, I know that
I messed it all up
I should have tried
but I find it so hard to trust so many lies, I guess I've gotten sorta numb Wish I could explain why my heart's been acting dumb
And I know that
my head's been racing
I don't do well with replacing
Kinda jealous, kinda faking all
And the thought of you with someone else
Made me wanna prove myself
By putting up another stupid wall
So I'm sorry if I'm kinda mad
It's maybe cuz I cared
I thought it wouldn't hurt me bad
But maybe I was scared
And I've been doing bigger things
But you're still everywhere
It's not fair
Something 'bout you makes me go insane and there's something making that okay
Yeah I know I shouldn't feel this way
But maybe you feel the same?
I played the last key on the mini piano before placing it to the side. I felt a bit better about everything but it still didn't help with everything. I wiped the rest of my tears away and climbed into my bed but closing my songbook and placed it on the nightstand beforehand. I grabbed my remote and tried to find something to watch. Somehow I ended up watching Sesame Street.
Basically I just needed a background noise for the room since I would be on my phone the entire time. I heard the front door open and closed. I instantly knew that Carlos would barge in here without a second thought. I threw my phone somewhere on my bed, messed up some of my pillows and placed the cover over my head before he could walk in. "FLYN-" Carlos started to yell but cut himself off as he opens the door.
"Oh she's a asleep" Carlos says in a disappointed tone by that I knew he was pouting. "DADDDD SHE'S ASLEEP" Carlos yells. "-THEN STOP YELLING YOU'LL WAKE HER UP" Ray yells from the living/dining room. I tried my best not to laugh. "I know you're not sleeping, Felicity-" Carlos starts.
"-And one day, someday I will catch up in the act" Carlos finished. "Creepy" I mouthed while furrow my eyebrows. "Sweet dreams, flytrap" Carlos chuckles evilly before shutting my door.
Yeah I'm definitely not going anywhere near him tomorrow.
Author's Note:
I'm pretty happy about this chapter even though it's short, plus I really love the song!
You guys probably won't care but I changed
[Bᴀɪʟᴇʏ Gᴏᴏᴅᴍᴀɴ]
*Anna Cathcart*
to
[Cᴀʀʀɪᴇ Wɪʟsᴏɴ]
*Savannah Lee May*
since it went better with the story!
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