Lights Off

Prologue

Eyes glowing like a lone star amidst the night starry sky pierce into mine. She was staring back at me with an immense amount of emotion before she shook her head.

I keep steady and unmoving because I never thought that she would be here. . .that she will come to the most unexpected situation.

"You're making me stupid, Kara." She started.

I bit my lower lip and averaged my gazes to the other side but her. The extreme aura of her eyes is giving me discomfort and fear of losing her anytime now.

Her voice, stern, as if she's talking about something concerning her profession.

Her appeal right now is reflecting her aura every time she's inside her properties.

She's a successful businesswoman who has never been more respected than before.

She had a reputation to be taken care of yet she risk it all just for me.

I never thought of having an affair with someone like her. She is too way out of my league but destiny's cruelty is given to me.

I don't deserve her.

But God's know-how much I tried to be deserving of her love. I tried my best to be someone who can be proud of when the times come and we don't have to hide it anymore.

Because I know that I don't have any match to those people who are more likely to be linked to her.

I am not the standard.

"V-Val," I utter her name as I shook my head to her and bit my lower lip hard.

"What now, Kara? You'll tell me that society is against us again and bullshits?" Her voice is stern and calm as ever but it is making me more afraid of the fact that I will lose her after this.

She'd gone enough because her eyes tell it all. Those anger that she keeps on hiding from me because she knows that I will tremble in fear.

"You don't have any plan of telling the public who I am to you, aren't you?" She chuckled without any humor.

"You will receive a lot of bashing, Val. Your company, your reputation, it will be all at stake---"

"I don't care." She cut me off after she smiles bitterly at me. "I just want to own my rights that have been given to another damn moron that you know I am jealous of!"

I take a few steps more to reach her and when I successfully did, I wipe her tears away.

"You're so unfair, Kara." She mumbled before holding my hand and removing it away from her gorgeous face.

"I can't do it, Val. I still can't." I said under my breath earning a sarcastic laugh from her.

"When will you be ready? Huh? When I am no longer yours and you are to me? When we already broke up---" she cut herself midway as her lips parted in awe. She shook her head away as if she was dropping the topic that was building inside her head.

"N-no. . .I won't break up with you." She sternly stated while her eyes are filled with determination. "Hurt me all you want but I won't let you go even if you plead me to."

"But everything you build up will crash down because of what we had, Val. You know that. Your family won't like me because---"

"Because you think you don't fit those damn illusionary standards?! Damn it, Kara. You are my standard!"

Her lips tremble even more and before I even know it, she's now holding my face with gentleness.

"Stop looking down at yourself when I am looking up to you higher than a queen." She mumbled as she brush my tears away using her lips. "I won't risk everything if you're not worth it, Kara."

"But I can't do the same to you," I mumbled weakly. "Let's just give up, Val. You don't deserve this. . .at isa pa, pagod na rin ako."

She shook her head in disbelief as she look at me with betrayal.

"Why does it seems so easy to you to let me go when I can't even stand the fact of ours, parting ways."

She sobs a little hard as she palms her face because of her tears falling nonstop.

I bit the inside of my cheeks to stop myself from running towards where she is.

As much as I want to comfort her, I can't.

"Why can't you see how much I value your existence in my life more than anything else? . . . I am also tired, Kara, but I never give you up. I was so tired of accepting all those criticisms just to be with you but I never give you up because I know how much I love you." Her tears fell to her soft rosy cheeks while her lips are trembling.

"But why can't you trust me? Why can't you trust the love I have for you if ever the public knew that we are in a relationship? I can take all of their bullshits but I can't take of you, walking away from my life."

I was about to reach her hand when she slap mine away. She takes three steps backward as she lifted her hand and stop me from moving.

Her eyes lost their shine as if it was our first time meeting each other. It was glimmering in intense pressure and frustration with a hint of sadness and desperation.

"What do you want me to do?" I weakly utter as my eyes clouded with tears while staring back at her.

"I don't want you to do it just because I said it. I want you to do it because that's what I deserve. . .because of what you've promised me." Her walls break down as she smiled vulnerably.

"Ipaglaban mo naman ako."

A smile drew at my lips as I shook my head.

"The lights are still on, Valentine."

When the lights are off, that's the only time we had to own each other as if we own the world.

Because ever since lights are alive, it is stopping me to do my things to live.

It's too manipulative. . .and destructive.

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A/N: I adjusted the chapters but I didn't change a thing. Like before, I'll publish an update whenever I had the time to do so. A lot of typographical error and grammatically incorrect ahead. I hope you understand. Thank you so much <3!!

@Kyuuutieminguin as promise.