Chapter 25
(Jenn's POV)
I hate myself right now. I got in the biggest fight with Harry and it was all my fault. Right now, I am watching Titanic while crying into a pillow. My pajamas are all messed up, I have one sock on, and my braided hair is a mess. I really don't care anymore. I wish my love was like Jack and Rose's. Happy, a few ups and downs, but it all ends up figured out. Jack was showing Rose his art book on the first class deck and the wind blowing in his hair, it made him look hot. Didn't everyone have a crush on Leonardo DiCaprio when they first saw Titanic? My thoughts were interrupted when a knock was on my door.
I groan and get up. My body was sore for some reason and my cheeks hurted so much from crying. I looked like a ridiculous child crazy adult. I really don't care what I look like at the moment. For god's sake, I feel like half my heart is missing.
"Luke?" I say opening the door.
"What happened to you and Harry? He literally yelled at me in the hall before walking into Louis' room. Are you okay?" he asks walking through the door.
"Yeah, I'm good."
Luke turns around and grabs my shoulders, "no you are not. Tell me the truth."
I lead him over to the table and I sit down. Before I begin, he grabs my hands in the middle of the table and keeps them there.
"Harry was wondering why I wasn't in my seat during the concert when he was performing. I told him I had to talk to you. He wanted to know why," the tears begin filling my eyes and I can't see, "I told him our whole conversation. How I told you that I liked you, the whole entire thing Luke."
"Jenn..why would you tell him that?"
"He is my boyfriend Luke. I love him too."
"Jenn..if he doesn't make you happy, then end it. I am not saying come for me, but I just want you to be happy."
"Luke, when Harry is happy and the Harry that he always is, I am happy. This rude Harry, I don't like. I don't know if I want to be with him anymore. My heart is telling me to keep him, but my mind is telling me to leave him."
The tears begin falling from my eyes and I can't control it anymore. The pain of watching Harry walk out of the door, unhappy with me, made my heart break again. If we do breakup, I want it to end happily. That we will still be friends. I don't plan on getting back together with Luke, for now at least. I just need to talk to Harry.
"Jenn. I do want you to know, whatever choice you make, I will support you through it all."
"Thanks Luke. I really appreciate it."
We stood in silence for a few minutes, "J-Jenn?"
"Yea?"
"Did you mean it when you said you liked me today?"
"Of course I did. I do like you. But I love Harry."
"Oh."
"Luke-"
"No, no. It's okay. I'm good. Well, I'm just gonna go back to my hotel room. It's getting late. Night Jenn," Luke says running out of the room.
The tears begin falling again and they are because of both Luke and Harry. No part of me regrets being with Luke or Harry. I had to make this right. I get up from the table I was sitting with and grab my cow slippers. I grab my 'Guard' sweater and check my appearance. I comb my hair out and fix my fallen makeup.
I walk out of my room and look for Louis' room. I check the time on my phone and realize it's two in the morning. Knowing that one of them probably won't open the door, I still wait.
"Jenn? What are you doing here?" Harry answers the door.
He looked miserable. There were a hint of bags under his eyes and his eyes were watery. His hair was ruffled up and his clothes look like he tried to rip them apart.
"We need to talk," I say seriously.
"Jenn, it's two in the morning."
"I don't care. Please?" I snap.
He looks behind him and opens the door wider. I begin walking to an area that looked like a lounge room. I open the door and find a sofa to sit on. Harry softly closes the door and sits on the sofa across from me.
"Harry-"
"Do you love Luke too?" he interrupts.
"What? No. I do like him. But I love you Harry. There is a huge difference from love and like. I guess, when we broke up, part of me wanted to come back to him. Then I met you. You completely changed me. I felt better, that my life wouldn't be a wreck anymore."
"You were using me?" he shouts.
"No Harry! It just felt different being with someone after a week or so since I broke up with him. If I was using you, would I say I love you?"
"I don't really know."
"Harry. You came to visit me in Sydney. No one has ever done that to me. You make me feel so loved and involved. I never feel that way. When I was in high school, I was always left out. People would say I'm their best friend and I'm apart of their group, but I was just used. I would always see them hanging out without me. I didn't feel important."
"Jenn. I can't trust you anymore."
"Harry. Please. I love you."
The tears were escaping, after I tried to hold it in. My fragile body finally broke down. I haven't shattered into pieces yet. Harry had tears falling as he tried to say something, but kept resisting.
"I think we should break up."
I finally shattered into pieces.
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OMG. I DID NOT EXPECT THAT TO HAPPEN. OMG. LOL. I JUST WROTE THIS OUT. HOLY CRAP. UM...DON'T HATE ME? IDK. THANKS FOR READING AND YEAH. HAVE A GREAT DAY.
