Chapter 45
(Jenn's POV)
"Stop being so beautiful Jenn," Luke whispers in my ear.
We have been on his new tour since last week and I am having so much fun. I think it finally hit me that my parents were gone for good when I saw them being lowered into the ground. We sold the house two days ago and I wasn't even able to say my last goodbyes to the house I barely lived in. Luke has been trying to cheer me up and get me out of that phase, but it is kinda hard. I have been staying in the tour bus, alone, because I don't want to be by people.
"What can I stop when I haven't started?" I ask.
"Jenn...."
"What? I'm not ready Luke. I just don't want to accept that my parents are gone."
"I know Jenn, it is hard, I don't want you to rush this. It's a phase that everyone will go through in their life and unfortunately, you have to go through it now."
He pulls me into a tight hug. We have been having a similar conversation for the past few days. Out of all the guys and their girlfriends that are here on tour, Luke has to be the most sympathetic and comforting. Misty came to tour the day after tour started and we have been catching up lately. Her and Michael have gotten more serious in their relationship and she also lost contact with Jade. We have been getting along with Hey Violet too. I am really close to Miranda more than the others. My life is great, except for what happened a week ago that is causing me to have these conversations with Luke over and over again.
"Are you staying in the tour bus again tonight?" Luke asks.
"Yea. Luke I'm really sor-"
"It's fine Jenn. Take your time. Whenever you are ready, I'll be ready."
Luke walked off, to get ready for the show, but didn't say goodbye to me. I know he is disappointed that I have yet to go to one of their concerts, but I am not in the mood. I do want to see them perform, but how can I be happy at one when I have things on my mind?
I begin walking to the parking lot of the backstage area. Because of me, they have been keeping the tour bus in the stadium we are playing at that night. I open the bus door and walk up the stairs.
"So I heard someone needs some cheering up," I hear a voice that sounded familiar.
I look up to see four boys sitting on the lounge area of the bus. I freeze and place my hand over my mouth. The tears form in my eyes and I can't help but scream.
"What are you guys doing here?!"
I run into their arms and just let them hold me. It's nice to have someone else, besides the people I will be touring with, to hang out with.
"We have a small break from our tour and Calum told us everything that has happened and Jenn, we are so unbelievably sorry for what happened. We are here for you and we will take off as much time as we need to help you get through this. I promise, by the time we leave, you will be happy and relieved," Liam says.
"Thank you guys, I love you all so much. You don't know how much this means to me," I reply.
"Okay, I think we should all just talk to you in private, but first, we have some news for you.."
"Okay..go ahead."
"I don't know if you have heard, since you haven't been answering your phone lately...but Zayn left us."
"Wha-What do you mean?"
"March 25, Zayn officially quit One Direction. He took a break from the tour because of a bunch of chaos, but he was talking to lawyers and our management and he left us for Naughty Boy. We kinda don't talk to him as much, but we do miss him."
"Oh my gosh, guys I'm so sorry... Does this mean One Direction is done?"
"God no. We have the rest of tour and our new album. We aren't breaking up anytime soon."
"Good. Now, who is first to talk?" I ask.
"ME!" Louis shouts, "JENN PICK ME!"
"Fine, Louis."
Everyone else walks to the back of the bus where the 5SOS boys have their game consoles. This is kinda weird, but I haven't seen them in a while, especially Niall and Liam.
"Okay, what has been happening with you?" I ask.
"Well, I broke up with Eleanor..."
"Are you serious?"
"Yeah, she tried to fix the problems, but they were just getting worse. I just want to stay single for a little before finding the person I know I want to spend the rest of my life with."
"Good job Louis, I'm really proud."
"I have been really writing a lot for the new album, but Jenn, I can care less about my life, how have you been?"
"I can be better. Since the funeral, I have just been gloomy. I stay in the tour bus while they preform and Luke sometimes stays with me before he goes on. Lately, he has been getting more disappointed that I have been missing his concerts. I haven't been to one yet. I just don't feel like I want to be in a positive place. They don't have problems in their life right now."
"Awe Jenn. I can see why Luke has been that way, he has done as much as he possibly could to make you happy. He wants you to be able to support him, like he has supported you. Everyone has problems in their life, we just need to move on from them."
"You are right, I need to get over this. I need to move on."
"Just take your time. I know Luke needs you just as much as you need him."
"You are honestly the brother I have always wanted, thank you Louis."
"Anytime. If you need anything, just call me and I will be right next to you, no matter how far I am from you guys."
He was right, I needed to move on from this, no matter how much it will cost, I need to move on from my parent's death. That is what they probably want me to do.
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HAY GUYS. WOW HAVEN'T BEEN ON HERE IN A WHILE. SORRY, ALL THESE TESTS FOR THE END OF THE YEAR AND UGH. I HAVE TWO POSSIBLY THREE STORY IDEAS THAT HOPEFULLY WILL BE TURNED INTO A BOOK SOON. I THINK YOU GUYS WILL REALLY LIKE AT LEAST ONE. THANKS FOR READING AND BYEEEE.
