Katie McGrath Imagines

Remember Me

Katie's Pov:
I missed Y/n. I know she didn't want to leave. Our daughter was only eight at the time. I still remember the last thing she said to me before she passed. 'I just want you guys to know how much I love you. I'm always going to be watching you guys.' Neither me or my daughter understood what she meant at the time. No matter what the reality was, we didn't want to believe she was close to dying. But she knew she was close to passing.

I always find time in my day to go sit in her room. It was her office. She always wrote something about her day. Everyday. I never knew what she wrote in it until she passed. The first time I read it, it broke me. She had pages filled up about how her day went. But most of it was about me and Jade, our daughter. I always carry one in my bag though.

October 8, 2013
Today was the best day of my life. My beautiful wife gave birth to our daughter. I couldn't have been more excited or scared. I don't think I've ever been so in love with someone so much. Katie just gave birth to our daughter.

Our daughter. Jade Elise L/n. She has Katie's eyes and my nose. She is so small I thought I was going to crush her just by holding her. She's going to grow up so fast and I'm not ready for it. I already know sending her off to her first day of kindergarten is going to be hell for me. I couldn't even put her down today. As creepy as it sounds I just held her and stared at her all day. The feeling that I have a daughter makes me ecstatic.

Not just that, it's the fact that she's mine and Katie's. I don't have much to say. I just want Katie and Jade to know how much I love them. I didn't think I could ever be this happy.

Y/n L/n

I carry this specific one because for some reason it makes me happy. When I'm sad or I miss her I read it. She has hundreds of notes like this. I haven't even read them all. Half of the reason being that it's an invasion of her privacy, the other half being that I can't bring myself to do it.

"Mommy" Jade said running into my bedroom crying. "What's wrong honey" I said going to wipe the tears off her face. "I'm sorry. I went in mamas room with juice and it spilled on her book. I tried to clean it up. I'm sorry" she said crying harder, hiccuping.

Was I mad? No. She's a kid she doesn't know any better. Was I upset? Maybe a little. It wasn't like she wasn't allowed in there. She missed Y/n too. She likes to sit in there and draw.

When y/n used to work in her office and I wasn't home yet, I'd always come home to find Jade drawing on the floor in that room. Sometimes Y/n was drawing with her sometimes she was doing work.

"It's okay. Let's go see if we can clean it up."

I walked into the room and saw the spilled juice. It wasn't a lot.

"It's okay honey it's only her work book" I said picking the notebook up. "I'm sorry. I just wanted to draw in here" she said putting her head down. "Jade it's okay. Just next time get a cup with a lid. I'll clean this up" I said kissing her forehead.

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Today was our anniversary. It would've been eleven years together.

I took the day off. Jade is at school and it's still pretty early.

I went to her grave and sat in front of it before sitting one of Jade's drawings down on top of her grave using flowers to weigh it down so it won't fly away.

"Love, guess what Jade did. I sent her to school in tights and a t shirt with sneakers and she came back in a skirt with a sparkly shirt on and sandals" I said laughing at the memory. "She's doing really good in school though. Her teachers love her. I miss you a lot and so does Jade. She sits in your office all the time. I wish you were here to watch her grow up. But life happens I guess" I said with a sigh. "Oh my gosh I wish you could've seen how this guy asked me out the other day. He used the cheesiest pick up line ever and he had the worst breath. It was horrible. Then he saw the ring on my finger and started stuttering. His whole face turned red and he walked away but tripped over a chair and fell on his face. Like completely slammed on the floor. I could just imagine you laughing at him" I said chuckling remembering the incident. "Anyway, I should get home. I want to clean the house before I get Jade even though she's just gonna mess it up again" I said while standing up.

"I love you and so does Jade."

I walked back to the car and just sat there for a second. I will always miss her but I know she loves me and Jade.