Katie McGrath Imagines

Might hug me

I know I was blinded by love. I hated it. I hated that she could tell me to do whatever and that I'd do it.

Like when she asked me to drive an hour away just to get her favorite food. Or when I let her use me in an experiment which resulted in me not being able to move for the next two weeks.

There was multiple instances but I couldn't say them all. And it's not like I could complain much because I'd go back to her every time.

I know it was pathetic. I love her.

She was mad at me. Quite frankly she was LIVID at me. She hasn't talked to me in a week, she hasn't kissed me, she won't even let me hold her hand.

Why is she mad at me? I forgot about her gala. I'm still embarrassed about it and beating myself up. I feel horrible.

All day I sit and think about her. I text her. I call her. But no response.

The worst part is that we live together. I've been sleeping on the couch. Sometimes I wake up and she's with me but she still won't talk. I just feel horrible.

She only talks to me when she needs something. Even our friends notice.

She had texted me that she needed me to come to her office to help move things. Of course I jumped for joy when she texted me and Kara noticed.

"Y/n you know she's just using you." "I know but she might hug me." "That is so sad. Go help her."
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After about an hour I moved all the stuff Lena needed me too.

I sat the last boxes down and went to go talk to her.

"Everything that you needed is moved into the lab downstairs." "Thanks. That's all I needed."

"Really? That's it?" She looked up raising her eyebrow at me. Normally that would intimidate somebody, but not me. I just think it's hot and now I'm even more bothered that she's mad at me.

"Yes that's it." "Lena I miss you. I'm sorry. You don't know how sorry I am. I just want us to talk again." She ignored me and went back to doing her work.

"Okay Lena" I said moving towards the door. "I love you" I mumbled.

"Sit" she muttered before I could fully get to the door.

I slowly turned around and sat in the chair that was in front of her desk.

I sat and stayed silent. She continued to do work on her laptop but I didn't dare to move. I sat there for over twenty minutes just watching her. I waited and waited hoping for her to say something.

Finally she closed her laptop and looked at me.

"I'm sorry" she spoke out. "Lena please don't apologize. You didn't do anything. I messed up. Do not apologize." "I have never been so excited to show someone something that when you didn't show up I just got embarrassed."

I wanted to cry when she told me that. I'm a horrible person. I loved Lena. I love her. But I've been trying to make it up.

"I'm so sorry Lena. I love you so much. I never wanted to make you feel that way. I feel awful."

I felt my phone buzzing and noticed that Kara had told me I needed to come back to work now. We were working on an article together and she needed me to finish my part up.

"I'm sorry Lena I have to go back. I have something for you when I get home though. Can you just wait for me?" "Yes I'll see you when you get home. Thank you for helping me. I love you." "I love you too" I said walking out the door.
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The thing I had for Lena was a side project. I've been working on it since I've met her. I was always finding new things out about her and always had to find a way to shorten the things I was saying about her.

But it's finally done. On the most popular article in the city Lena finally had something positive about her in a magazine. It wasn't much but she needed something positive about her.

If I was honest I was a little scared to show her. I felt bad for not showing up but I needed her to know that I saw what she was doing. I saw all the hard work she did. It wasn't unnoticed. I wish she truly knew how much I noticed.

I walked into the house looking for her. I was nervous. I just wanted to make her happy. I want to make it up to her.

"Lena" I called out. "Bedroom" I heard faintly.

I walked in to see her ready for bed. Was I out late? She looked exhausted.

"You look so tired I'm sorry" I said quietly. "It's fine. I just wanted to have an early night that's all. What's this thing you had for me?" "I'm sorry it's not a lot. I've been working on this ever since I met you" I said pulling the magazine out.

She raised her eyebrow at me and I was just too scared to give it to her. This is nothing. It doesn't amount to how horrible I feel. I want to go back and time and make it up. I love her so much and I messed up.

I sat on the other side of the bed trying to work myself up to give it to her.

A minute later she was right beside me. She laid her head on my shoulder rubbing my arm.

"Let me see it Y/n. What's wrong?" I handed her the magazine and stayed silent.

I watched her silently flip through it without making a sound. I was nervous, scared. I was afraid of how she was going to react.

"I know it's not something big. This is just a step into the right direction of me apologizing. Lena I promise you that it will never happen again. You don't know how much I've been beating myself up over this. I want you to know that no matter how you feel about me I love you. This magazine is just a piece of me showing you that. I'm not asking you to not be mad I just want you to talk to me."

"I... I don't know what to say." I couldn't tell what she was feeling.

"I didn't even tell you about half of these projects. What made you do this?" "When I met you I didn't like that everybody just looked at you as evil. I did some research on you that's where it started. I just wanted you to have something truly positive about you in the media." "I'm sorry for the way I reacted. I love you Y/n. More than you know. I should've just talked it out with you. I'm sorry. I really appreciate you making this. You don't know how much it really means to me." "You don't need to apologize to me. I need to apologize to you. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. It will never happen again and I can promise you that." "I believe you. I love you. And thank you for this"