Reality Sucks || Book 1

Chapter 94

|Back at the apartment|

"How was dinner?" Riley asked us, well she asked Kade.
He looked at me.
"It was fine." I lied. I walked over to the couch and sat down.
"I'll sleep on the couch." I let out as they whisper each other.
It's almost 9 pm, we went out at 7 and left 8 to get some new clothes and stuff for me then came back, I'm exhausted.
"Well, goodnight." they told me and head upstairs.
I grabbed a random blanket from the closet downstairs and huddle myself with it and closed my eyes.
|Riley's p.o.v|
I couldn't sleep because I kept thinking about Jaxon, who is downstairs sleeping. He changed so much, he's not open and everything. I can't explain, but he has changed. I hated it. I got out of bed to get a fresh glass of water.
I quietly stepped on the steps down, trying not to wake Jaxon up.
I slowly walked to into the kitchen. I grabbed a glass and turn on the sick and pour water on the glass. I hear Jaxon muttering or something. After I took a sip of my water I placed the glass in the sink and walked into the living room, once I got in there Jaxon start yelling and woke up. He was sweating, shaking , and crying all at once.
"Jaxon?" I call him and looked at me crying. My eyes started welling up, I walked to him and hugged him.
"I can't take it." he whimpered, I shushed him to calm him down. I could feel him shaking, I feel bad for him. What kind of nightmare that caused him to wake up crying and shaking.
"Do you want to sleep with me?" I whispered in his ear and he nodded. I grabbed his hand to help him out of the couch then wrapped my arm around him and walked him upstairs into the bed with him.
He faced the ceiling as I faced him. I looked at him, he was breathing heavily, but he was calming down.
"It's all my fault." I could see the fear in his eyes.
"I'm here for you." I grabbed his arm and cuddled with him.
"But it's still my fault." he purse his lips and took a deep breath.
"No it's not." I shook my head at him.
"I don't deserve to be here." he let out some tears and he wiped them away.
"No don't say that." I started crying, because God I want to help him.
"I hate my life, I hate my memories." he choked up a little.
I shush him to calm him down or to calm me.
"Don't say anything please." I told him as I patted his chest.
He swallowed and nodded, agreeing with me. I really want to help him and I feel bad for him. He has be suffering for his life for a long time. He has been through alot, I know I have been in some situations that he hated. I felt bad for him and his life, I'm glad that I'm with him right now, comforting him from his suicidal thoughts.
I'm helping him a little but not enough. It's literally 3 in the morning and I'm very tired.
I closed me eyes and fell asleep.

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Sorry if this is short, I have to study for my tests this week so I'm not gonna update in awhile....yeah.
Anyways, poor Jaxon. I felt bad for him and his life. I'll probably update on Saturday or Friday, depending when I have free time to write my story.
Oh btw thank you so much for over 11k reads and over 300 likes, I appreciate.
Thank you and bye :)