Peaky blinders angel- Completed

Starve

Rose is 15. Finn is 11

Rose pov

I woke up Saturday morning with a terrible headache. But I ignored it. Nothing worth fussing over. When I stood up, I looked at myself in the mirror. My stomach wasn't flat unlike how it was when I was little. And when I sat on my bed, I got stomach rolls. Not something boys find attractive. I don't know why though. I havnt eaten anything in 2 days and I've only had 1 glass of water. So why did I still have rolls?

I went downstairs after getting dressed to my breakfast out infront of me. Polly was sat down aswell

"There's ya breakfast love. I'm just popping out for abit. Look after finn for me" she said as I thanked her. Once she was gone, I looked at the plate of food. Sausages, bacon, beans, egg and toast. It looked delicious. But the thought of eating made me want to heave. So I did what I have been doing for 2 days. Tipped it in the bin

"Why ya not eatin?" I heard Finns voice from behind

"FINNY! Please don't tell anyone. I am just not hungry but you know they will worry" I begged

"You threw yesterday lunch away aswell. I saw ya. Don't lie to me! When did you last eat?" He asked as he sat me down at the kitchen table

"2 days ago" I said. His mouth hung open and he sat opposite me

"But rose, you gotta eat. If you don't then you'll get sick" he told me

"It's my body finn. You can't control me. I can so what I like and if you tell anybody, then I will be so mad. Promise you won't tell?" I whispered yelled to him. He looked at me unsure

"Promise?" I repeated more sternly. He huffed but linked my pinky with his and Promised. Although he didn't seem completely convinced.

Finn pov

Me and Rose decided to go down to the canal and play football. I don't know why she would do that to her body. I couldn't focus and her chatting away as I was just worrying for her. She was my big sister and I made a promise to her. So I wouldn't tell anyone. I wouldn't

As rose chased after me for the ball, I noticed she slowed down abit. So I looked at her and she was gripping her head with her eyes closed in pain

"Roe. Alright?" I asked. She started to sway so I ushered her into the nearby pub and sat her down. Arthur was there

"What you 2 doing?" He asked me when I went to get rose a drink of water

"Rose doesn't feel very well so we came for a rest" I told him. He went over to rose to check she was alright. Knelt down to her height as she was sat and stroked her hair back

"What happened love?" He asked

"Nothing. I just didn't sleep very well and then played football which tired me out more" she lied. I stood watching from a few metres away feeling guilt. How could I make her pain go away without breaking my promise?

Rose pov

After Arthur let me rest in the pub, me and finn went home. He was eyeing me worryingly as I walked hazily, dragging my feet from exhaustion.

"Let's go gym" I told him

"What?" He asked

"Let's go gym. We can both get stronger" I lied. I wanted to lose more weight. He nodded reluctantly as I dragged him to the gym. After half an hour of us 2 working out, I felt woozy. Tommy was there aswell with us. He was shocked to see us but said we entertained him enough.

"Darling?" Tommy said as I swayed left and right. But then, everything went quiet and I started to fall. Last thing I remember was the feeling of Tommy catching me in a panick

When I woke up, I was on the sofa.

"We should call a doctor" I heard Arthur's voice

"She will be fine" aunt pol reassured him. I opened my eyes and immediately finn hugged me before I could breathe. Everyone smiled at me at began questioning me about why I might have fainted. They came to the conclusion that lack of sleep and exercise was the culprit.

For the next weeks, I hardly ate or drank. And I was starting to see a difference. My stomach was smaller but I didn't stop. The rolls were still there when I sat down and i needed them gone. But tonight was family dinner. So it would be harder to not eat.

We all sat down at the dining room table. Everyone began to eat the roast dinner but I just looked at finn

"Everything alright roe?" John asked

"Ye. Just not very hungry" I said. Wasn't really a lie. The lack of food had gone past hunger and I now felt constantly full

"Stop it" i heard finn mutter

"Finn" I warned

"Stop lying to them" he said to me. Everyone looked at him questionably as tears began to form in my eyes. He looked at my family and said

"Rose hasn't eaten in over a week. That's why she fainted" I could've strangled him to death If her wasn't opposite me

"Is that true?" Ada asked me. I didn't say a word and continued to stare at finn

"You promised" I said

"I would rather break your trust than let you kill yourself" he said

"I'm not killing myself" i told no one in particular

"Yes you are love. Your not trying to but that's what's happening" esme said. I didn't reply and instead left the room as I tried not to cry. But the second I got to my room, I failed. Tears flooded down my cheeks as I sobbed

"Can I come in?" I heard Tommy ask. I didn't answer so he walked in anyway

"Why havnt you eaten love?" He asked

"I'm fat" i said giving up all hope

"You're not fat at all. You're gorgeous. The only person who doesn't see that is you" he comforted as he stroked my hair back

"But I'm not Tommy. I'm not gorgeous. Look at me. Boys don't want this. No boys ever look at me" I said

"That's not because they don't want to. It's because you're the shelby angel and they are scared of us. I'm sorry about that" he apologised. I shrugged my shoulders.

"Please start eating again! We don't want to force you or for it to become a matter with doctors involved. So please" he begged

"I will try" I said. He smiled gratefully and went to leave the room but I said

"Please don't go" he looked back at me before sitting on my bed next to me

"Can you do me a favour Tom?" I asked

"Anything"

"Don't stop boys from looking at me. Don't give them death glares or threaten them as long as they are polite of course. Just let boys talk to me. Or I'm gonna have to live with finn for the rest of my life. And I love him. But i will shoot myself" he chuckled at the end

"Fine. I'll tell ya what. You can have boyfriends and go on dates. But not alone in the house. And you let us investigate him to see if he's a spy" he said

"Deal" I said after thinking for abit. We both got up and went downstairs. I didn't finish my roast dinner but I ate half of it. Polly said it was a start and we can work on my appetite. But from that day, I vowed not to change my body, mind or soul for anybody. Man, woman, parents or child. Nobody tells me whats beautiful and whats not

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