Peaky blinders angel- Completed

Mama save us

Rose is 14. Finn is 12

Tommy pov

It was 10am and I'm sat in my office drinking whiskey, staring at the clock. I should be working. Thought it might distract me but I can't get anything done with the constant thought in my head. Today is the anniversary of our mother's death. Normally we forget about it, don't focus our day on the loss. However I knew it was different. Something in my gut told me that today would be a rotten day. Whether that is due to my mothers death I don't know. Could just be a coincidence. I just hoped I was wrong.

Arthur came running into my office red face and panting

"It's Rose. She's locked herself in her room. Refuses to come out" he said taking a breath. I stopped what I was doing and rushed to her room with Arthur close behind me.

"Rose" I said knocking. John and finn were stood outside her room

"Go away" she said. I could tell from the crack in her voice that she was crying

"What's wrong love?" John asked

"I said go" she screamed. We looked at eachother but non of us moved, instead we stayed deathly quiet. We were sat outside her room for a good 3 hours before realising it was time for dinner

"Rose. Let's go downstairs and get something to eat ay?" Arthur said knocking

"I'm not hungry" she replied.

"What if I bring you something up" finn suggested

"Ok" she said back sniffling. We went downstairs and I made her a sandwich which finn took upstairs to her. He came back down and began to eat

"So whats wrong with her?" I asked finn. He looked up and shrugged

"You do know. You two tell eachother everything" John said

"I honestly don't know. I went into her room this morning and she just kicked me out" he defended raising his voice a little

"Alright calm down. We're only asking. Do you think it's because of mum?" Arthur asked looking at me

"I don't know Arthur. I think it best if we leave her to calm down. Let her sort her head out" I told him

"How long will that take?" John asked

"As long as it takes" I replied finishing off my sandwich.

Rose pov

I woke up today like usual. I got dressed and I was about to go downstairs when a picture of mama caught my eye. She was so pretty. I had her photo on my wall and most times I look at it I get a happy feeling. Like she's here by my side. As I remembered what today was, I slowly came to a realisation. I know her face. I've seen pictures upon pictures. But I know nothing about her. Fuck. I can't even remember her voice. What kind of daughter am I to not remember the woman who cared of me and loved me?

It was at that point that I broke down in floods of tears. I was disappointed with myself and envious of my older siblings who will remember her well. Finn brought me lunch up and then left and I didn't even look at him. At 3pm, I decided to leave my room. Go and find mama and ask her myself.

I left my room and walked straight past my brothers who were on the sofa

"You alright love?" John asked. I ignored him and got my coat on

"Where you off to?" Tommy asked. Again, I ignored him for I knew that once I opened my mouth, a loud sob would escape and I wouldn't be able to leave. I ran off through the streets and past the church until I got to mamas resting place.

The cemetery was creepy at night but sweet during the day. Flowers bloomed and the sky was clearer here than any other part of Birmingham. I quickly found mamas grave as I have visited so many times before. I took a seat and face the tomb stone ready for our conversation

"Hi mama. Happy death day I guess. Are you having a party in heaven? I know it's not really something to celebrate but Tommy said you liked parties. Brought joy in the fucked up shelby clan. I have a confession to make if I'm being honest. I'm just gonna get straight to the point. I don't remember you. I know I should and I'm sure you showed me so much love as aunt pol does now but....but I have no memory of your love. I'm sorry, I really am. I do love you still. I promise. I just want to remember you so much and I feel so bad for not even knowing your favourite colour. I know very little about you and everything I do know has come from someone else's mouth not my memories"

I had to take a break to let out the loud sob which followed by many more tears

"I'm still pissed at you for dying ya know? I need you mama I really do. More than ever. Everythings changing now. And sometimes I wonder if it really is for the better like Tommy says. Sure we are quickly getting more money. But I'm no longer allowed in the streets without someone with me. Incase I get kidnapped or shot. I don't know if she told you but adas husband Freddie got killed. Arthur needs help and desperately. Its like there's a time bomb in the tunnels of his his ready ready explode. But no one knows when it's gonna go off. Finn doesn't understand that the business isn't something to be taken likely and I worry it will end with him getting hurt. John is too busy trying to make everyone else happy that he forgets about himself. Aunt pol is at wits end trying to keep the family together and Tommy.....Tommy's doing everything he can to provide us all a better life. But in reality, he's just making our world more dangerous. More corrupt and broken" I told her

"I just need you to save us all. Save us from whatever the devil has planned because I know enough to know our family is falling apart slowly and its work of lucifer. I need you to look after ada and her baby. She's struggling but she won't admit it. Help Arthur get his head right again and finn to stop putting himself in danger. And remind John to make himself happy once again. And for polly to take a break and just except that she has already done so much for us all. And Tommy. Please just help him smile again. I havnt seen him smile in a long time. I figure that if he smiles, then maybe he can be happy again. And them he can get things back to normal, stop all the upcoming war that's currently brewing"

Tommy pov

I listened to my little sister cry to our mother. She explained all our problems to her, begged her to help us. But she never asked for mama to help Rose. I walked behind my sister and looked at the tomb stone

"And help Rose be a kid again. Instead of growing up so fast and trying to save us all. She needs to know that she isn't an adult and our problems shouldn't be on her shoulders despite how stupid we may be" Rose turned around to look at me with tears pouring down her face. She stood up and wrapped her arms around my waist as she cried into my suit

"It's alright darling. Mamas listening to us and she's looking down now telling me to be a better brother for her little girl" I said kissing her head. She looked up at me and I smiled down to her

"You're smiling. A real smile" She said

"I guess mamas working her magic already" I said putting my arm around her shoulder and walking back home. I truly hope our mother can help us all. Before eventually the devil takes over our minds

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