Love, Poison of Wisdom

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Athena's Sentiment

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"Buti nga at pinayagan ka naming mag abogado. You keep failing us until now." I sighed as I heard the disappointment in my father's voice.

Yeah. I am Athena Isabella Asuncion, daughter of the one of the greatest architect and engineer here in Isabela. Their one and only daughter, that's why I am the one receiving all the pressures. Binitbit ko iyon hanggang sa makapagtapos ako, and even now. They will never stop making me feel that I shouldn't be here. I don't even know why.

Nakatitig lang ako sa pagkaing nasa plato ko. "I told you dapat nag architect ka nalang. Like me. Ang lakas ng loob mong mag abogado."

"I just want to choose for myself, mom. Masama po ba 'yo--" napaigtad ako nang ibinagsak ni daddy yung tinidor niya sa lamesa. Yumuko ka agad ako.

"Ang kapal ng mukha mo! Tandaan mo na kahit abogado ka na, ako pa rin ang nagpapakain sayo!" napapikit ako sa sigaw ni daddy.

"Because you won't let me----" go! I cut my own words because I'm afraid baka tumayo ang isa sakanila at saktan ako. I'm tired of it.

Dahil hindi ko na kaya, dahan dahan kong ibinaba sa magkabilang gilid ang mga utensils. Nakayuko akong tumayo. "I need to go to work, dad, mom." hindi ko na sila hinintay. I stood up, got my bag and drove to Selena's lawfirm.

I was crying as I drove my way. Pinili ko munang mag-stay sa car nang makarating ako, I need to wait hanggang hindi na ako magmukhang umiyak. I became successful, I became a lawyer, a professional job but they still see me as a failure. Iniisip nila na hindi ko kaya, and with their words to me, I feel like I am breaking up, every single day.

Tumingin ako sa salamin. I smiled at myself. "You can do this!" I tried to cheer myself up.

Lumabas ako sa kotse ko, saktong kakapark lang ng mustang ni Dracarus sa tabi, he is older than me but I dropped my formalities, okay lang naman daw. Selena immediately went out, followed by her husband. I feel so happy everytime nakikita ko sila, I envy them so much. I keep on thinking when will I feel that kind of love, too.

"Athena!" napangiti ako dahil sa tawag niya sa akin.

I watched Dracarus' arm locked on Selena's waist. Sobrang saya na nila while I am still here, pretending to be happy. "Nako, wag dito at naiinggit ako." biro ko sakanila.

Tumawa si Selena while Dracarus just laughed. "Humanap ka na kasi ng papi mo." pagsakay niya.

Umirap ako. "What for? Mom will surely find someone to arrange me with."

Dumaan ang lungkot sa mata ni Selena kaya I tried to say something to cheer her up. "Malay mo matulad sainyo!" tumawa ako. She just smiled.

Pinanood ko sila habang nagpapaalam sa isa't isa. They've been married for a year now and wala pa ring nagbabago. Mas naging happy at successful pa sila. I feel like God has his favorites, but I am well aware, I should not think that way. I smiled when Selena walked towards me, nakita ko na umalis na rin si Kuya Dracarus.