Love, Poison of Wisdom

Page 28

Athena's Sentiment

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I sighed as I looked at the droplets of rain hitting the window. It's been a week, a week without him at pakiramdam ko ay patay na ako ng isang linggo. Wala akong balita sakaniya. Dracarus can't reach him too, si Kaiden, galit naman sa akin. Si Mang Kanor ay umuwi muna sakanila, hiyang hiya ako sakaniya.

I failed to keep my promise. I failed to stay with him. I failed him and that makes me miserable now. I miss him, I miss him so much.

"Athena, smile. Ang ganda mo sa gown na 'to." Selena tried to make me feel better.

I smiled sadly. "There's no point of being happy when he's not going to be my groom, Selena."

I stopped my tears. Nandito kami ngayon sa store ni Tori, but wala yung pinsan ko. Nagsusukat ako ngayon ng gown ko dahil bukas na ang---bukas na ang kasal namin ni Giovan. Selena sighed in front of me, nakita ko ang lungkot sa mga mata niya.

"We can help you---"

"There's no point," I paused. "I broke his heart already at alam kong may nakabantay pa sakaniya ngayon na tauhan ni Giovan at ni mommy."

She touched my arms. "One call to Eros and he will kill all your mom's men."

Ngumiti ako at umiling. "Selena, one wrong move and Kairo will be dead."

She stayed silent and looked at my gown. I am wearing a white bustier tube ball gown, the sparkles attached to it made it so beautiful and enchanted. Humarap ako sa salamin para tignan ang sarili ko. Hindi na maitago ang pagkamugto ng mata ko dahil sa pagiyak gabi gabi. Ngayon lang ulit ako nakalabas dahil pinayagan ako ni mommy at inutusan niya akong magsukat ng gown ko, ang lahat ay abala sa paghahanda ng kasal namin bukas.

Kasal. I only want to be married to Kairo, sakaniya lang at wala ng iba. I guess, hindi na 'yon matutupad.

My gaze went to the chair in front of me unconsciously, nakalabas ang isang wedding invitation, it was meant for Kairo. Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit ko pa siya kailangang imbitahin, masyado ng makapal ang mukha ko non. Pero kahit sa huling sandali, I want to see him again, kahit saglit lang.

"Blagden said Kairo accepted the scholarship offered to him at a university in Barcelona, he will finish his course there." napalingon ako kay Selena nang magsalita siya.

My forehead wrinkled. "Akala ko walang balita si Dracarus kay Kairo?"

She smiled. "He lied. Kairo asked him to not tell you anything about him during these past few days."

May kumirot sa puso ko. "Bakit naman?"

"You left him, Athena. He's assuming that you want to forget about him." she casually answered.

I pressed my lips together, controlling my tears. "Did he--- did he ask for me?"

"Always." she replied.