once in a blue im a little too deep
or i cry about things that are a little too steep
i dont always watch the things that i say
and i laugh when i stomp
and i curse when i pray
i hate shaking hands because mine are too cold
i never follow orders or do what im told
maybe im simply too prideful and my ego too bold
to be walked all over and let my heart fold
i recite horror films because they remind me that i
just may not have as scary a life
as i think i do through a much blinded eye
so i breath in deep and let out smoke with a sigh
&who told yall nothing lasts forever?
& when things are bad that theyre gonna get better
i see kept promises as a scarlet letter
and saying goodbye comes easy never.
its oblivion of which im afraid
and through blood ,sweat and tears i know i was raised.
deep in the heights is where struggles are great,
where children are slain and monsters are made.
trauma is the root of traumatized,
you ask why im hurt but you couldn't handle why.
you can barely look even me in my blood shot eyes
without all your walls breaking and you wanting to cry.
where do you go on a dead end?
do you give up, and say you're okay?
do you play pretend ?
theres really no way to fix yourself
because to want to see heaven youve got to see hell
everyone tells me "youll be okay oh well." but im not there yet , and im waiting still.
-Reyna.T
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Project Feel
Nonfiksi"Written words speak when your voice fails" I started this project almost two years ago as a way for people all around the world to see that they are not voiceless or alone and that there isn't just one version of life. Not only that but also to sh...
