Sweetness blurs my reality
Calmness clouds what they would see
Nobody believes me
Why would they tho,my life is all good all the time right
Reality is something I can barely handle
Rather keep my brain fuzzy
Bare one major emotion out of them all
Let it spread through out me like a wild fire
Numbness is my sense of reality
I barely feel a thing now ah days
I live in my own personal hell with no escape
No relief from it all
It's slowly burning my halo
Im scarring myself to limitless ends
I have no control anymore
Not for three more years
Trust me I'm serving my sentence consecutively
18 years for a bottle of jack and a New Years party
Normal was never in my vocabulary
Life just wasn't that simple
Now I'm losing myself in my make believe
Blaring music rescues me for the time being
But reality will soon claim me back as its own
Steal me from my make shift heaven here below
Ears are ringing
Head is pounding
Body's shaking
Fist are clenching
Eyes are stinging but no tears are shed
At least not anymore they aren't
Heart beat is louder
I wish the world had a mute button
But once again silence is the loudest of it all
I cringe at thunder;
Cause it reminds me of the screaming I've learned to call love,
I don't stand up for myself;
Cause my main support has turned,
I say I'm fine;
Cause it's easier than explaining it all
Reality contains lies of all kinds
Looks like we're just good at playing pretend
They never have a second thought about it
But how can we blame them
We got so good at the game it became our lives instead of our protection
The truth comes in waves
Pain gages aren't limitless
Levels reach a point only robots can take
Humans make mistakes
A concept that if it was understood,would stop reality from crashing and numbness being our only sense of protection
- Tanna
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Project Feel
Não Ficção"Written words speak when your voice fails" I started this project almost two years ago as a way for people all around the world to see that they are not voiceless or alone and that there isn't just one version of life. Not only that but also to sh...
