25. She is Anxiety-Cas

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My thoughts are all jumbled
And my body is weak
My head is here pounding
And my world is all bleak

She's yelling words at me
That are nothing but true
That make me feel worthless
Through and through

And I know that she shouldn't
Bother me like this
But she does and I hate her
And my thoughts are amiss

She's confusing and broken
Just like I am
She's the same person
But inside my head

She is called Anxiety
The one destroyer of me
That makes my thoughts bleed
And my voice noisily scream
And my body shake violent
And my head quake yet silent
And my heart squeeze in pain
And weaken my knees in shame
And breaks my life into a million pieces
She is Anxiety

Every day she's with me
Waiting in silence
Waiting to attack
Until the right moment

She knows that I don't want her
But she comes anyway
At morning or night
Or all through the day

And no matter how hard I try
She whisks away my certainty
In one simple motion
As if it was nothing but easy

I want her to leave
And she does now and then
But she always comes back
Again and again

She is called Anxiety
The one destroyer of me
That makes my thoughts die
And my voice loudly cry
And my body fall helpless
And my head feel so restless
And my heart fumble around
And my feet stumble to the ground
And breaks my life into a million pieces
She is Anxiety

She is torturous and cruel
And the closer I come to dying
The more that I break down
The more that she is satisfied

She knows what she's doing
A professional heart breaker
Turning my mind
Into the lowest of traitors

And I think about all the times
I cried myself to exhaustion
And remember her angering me
readying for combustion

She's breaking me down
And her win will be wrong
Because my barrier of strength
Can only hold for so long

She will reign
And tear me down
As she builds up her fame
Until the end of my days

She is called Anxiety
The one destroyer of me
That makes my thoughts doubt
And my voice vulgarly shout
And my body collapse
And my head relapse
And my heart turn cold
And my legs bend and fold
And breaks my life into a million pieces
She is Anxiety
The one destroyer of me
Controlling me
Indefinitely
-Cas

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