I'm just warning you
Once you give up
Your done
Game over
You'll be singing with the Angels,watching over
Or maybe
You'll be numbed of your senses
Fading away
they'll call you insane
Considered a delusion,illusion
Nothing can last forever
Now you can't feel your feet on the ground
Your phone clasped tightly in your hand
One things for sure
The music still plays
Loud in your ears like nothing's changed
The only beat now existent
As your heart beat has faded
Remember this is what you decided
You've got 7 minutes
Your brain is processing these final two songs
Maybe after you'll still remember the words
They'll stick with you like tattoos
Remember you always said you wanted to get one of a bird
Maybe all the others will be buried too
You always had a knack for remembering them all
Saying the word yall
Running around the mall
I couldn't help but feel my heart beat quicken
When I started re thinking
How I always said I'd respect your choices
Id be right beside you through it all
Yes,this is clearly what you decided
I can't help but feel divided
I want you right here by my side
Yet I promised to be by yours
Look at that your still always winning
I'm crying letting my tears fall
Nothing could have prepared me for that phone call
Worse than anything I've ever had to go through if I recall
These words may not mean a thing to you
But I'll yell them off our cliff
Every year on this day
If it helps confuse some people how there's double the date on your stone
I'll let them know you always said you'd die on the day you were born
Yet I never thought it'd be by choice just a freak way the world worked
Now listen to me from up there I know you can hear me just shut up for a second listen to my plea
I'm swinging my legs hanging off this cliff of ours
Reciting these words like your favorite song that always got stuck in my head some how
Gripping this paper in my palms like you always did when you read along
Letting the tears fall not caring to wipe them away
That's how it should be done you'd always say
Don't be bothered with wiping away the pain it needs to come out to go away
I take shaky breaths as I remember your voice
How my heart still hurts
There's a rip I don't know that can be fixed
I'm yelling and screaming
You'd always say this helps
But right now
I'm wasting my breath on what seems impossible
I can't get over how I'm standing right in this spot
My knees shaking at the thought
Took me a week to realize it's real
Always thought I'd wake up to you still sitting on my window seal
Never late
Never forgot
Your hair all messy
Your eyes shined bright
8 on the dot every day
Now I'm breaking down once again
Woke one morning to find it empty cold from the rain
Shining from the sun that'd peaked out for once in days
You never said goodbye
You left without giving me an answer
Confusion clouded my vision
Didn't leave me one either
Just a note now I can hear you in my imagination while reading the last words you had written
You'll see me again some day don't follow my lead
Follow your heart it's always taken us far
Three rules id love you to live by now that I am where I am
Never change at all I'll be watching you beauty and all
Keep it our cliff pass it down when the little ones are young be careful but carefree life isn't long remember me ?
Don't blame your self
I left you for me
I know
I am selfish
Don't strike the match of denial
its final
I'm crying why writing something I always remember you doing
Don't forget me please
we'll meet again someday,
When it's your time
Trust me I'll pay the price
Watching you struggle from up here
Leaving you all alone was my biggest mistake
Yet like I said
It's final
I'm sorry
Your correct
Just like always
You indeed did give me a warning
Now I'm paying the price
Watching you move on after watching you fall apart
All the same pain
Not for you but for my non beating heart
It's torture I never want to endear
Always said I wouldn't hurt you
Now I'm praying he keeps his promises better than I
I remember the day we meet
Do you not ?
How could I ever forget
Sarcasm filled my ears before I saw your face for the first time
It was lightning in a bottle
All put away didn't know what to say
Beauty
Love
Storms
Rain
trust
All in years time once that bottle was broken of its past chains
My love for you will always be eternal
Immortal
Something I'll always remember
I was a fuck up you know
That's what lead to this even tho I know you wanna say it didn't
Let's stop the lies
Get it all straight
I love you
Plain and simple
I couldn't handle myself
It was obvious to everyone but you
Only saw the good in me
This night
I gave up the hardest and greatest part of me
Hopefully
You'll still remember me ?
Till next time
I'm signing this for the last time
Remember all the times I wrote these last ending words
Forever my dear please remember
Yours truly
This is jack
The one holding your hand
The one calling you cute
Lame and beautiful all in one day
The one who's writing this to brighten your day
We be chillin
Killin all them others
I'm yours
Your mine
This is jack
Saying goodbye
And p.s
You warned me I know, don't think I'll ever forget
Now I'm up here chillin in never land just waiting for your ticket
- Tanna
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Project Feel
Nonfiksi"Written words speak when your voice fails" I started this project almost two years ago as a way for people all around the world to see that they are not voiceless or alone and that there isn't just one version of life. Not only that but also to sh...
