What was once a colorful life was now dulling to off white as the days pass
A bed unmade and the books off the shelf clothes thrown around like he had never left .
Wandering but i'm not lost.
over thinking the thought
of his heart still beating
like the one that made me fall asleep while they were fighting.
away for too long only a picture to remember
questions flying through over and over i wonder
does he still wrinkle his nose at the color red
or laugh when snow gets in his dirty blonde hair
The words he said as he held me close stick in my brain like January snow
Can't get over the fact that he had to leave
Sleeping in his shirts like a sliver of hope to me
Wishing on stars that he'll walk through the door cause I couldn't take it anymore
Praying with his sob filled mother holding his nightmare consumed sister
cracks of thunder taking over the skies
Night after night letting the dark take over
without being in his arms the pain in my chest
It's like I'm on the battlefield next to him to me there was no difference
Laying in the fields tan arms around my waist
Surrounded by green watching misshaped clouds of white
No black no blood
Walking with the other half of me holding my hand
no way to see this coming
terrified and so confused
Now I'm laying here empty hearted an overwhelmed
Nothing to think nothing to say
Couldn't bare the pain
Told myself the count of three and I'd be free
But I feel my body being pulled back to the empty world that surrounded me
Arms latched around me
Thought my mind was playing tricks on me
But when the words slipped and time slowed
I knew this was reality
A once colorful life now back to itself
A unmade bed with us laying in it once again
Books off the shelf but now they're open
Clothes back in the closet now he looks like himself
Wandering but I'm not lost
Finally got myself a map
Don't know how it happened
He's back in my arms to this day
Yes, I was wandering but no I was not lost just needed to find my other half.
~Tanna
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No Ficción"Written words speak when your voice fails" I started this project almost two years ago as a way for people all around the world to see that they are not voiceless or alone and that there isn't just one version of life. Not only that but also to sh...
