Bailey Holis: A Girl's World ♡

a Sad Alan .

I was in this house a whole month now without seeing my friends, going out, or anything. I was forced to be dropped off to school every morning and picked up after. I was seriously considering running away but I didn't know where I would go. They disconnected my phone service so I couldn't text or call anyone. I should probably stop saying 'they' as if my mom was in on any of this. I'm sure she's trying to get through to my dad but he's so set on believing that keeping me shackled up in this house is good for me. I really hated him at this point. Bailey was out with Jeremy I suppose and Jessica was downstairs in her room. She was down there a lot just writing which surprised me because she doesn't come off as the writing type. It was mid afternoon on a Thursday and I was doing homework that I didn't understand. Sammie was somewhere in the house and my mom was in her room. I tried staying in my room as much was needed because I was embarrassed to be seen most of the time and I just didn't want to see my dad's pathetic face. I've been also avoiding Steven at school because I was sort of embarrassed around him as well. I felt like my dad was treating me like a 15 year old girl instead of a 16 year old boy. I've heard him and my mom many nights talking about the issue as he calls it.

"ALAN!" My mom called me from downstairs.

"What!?" I respond.

"Come eat something." She says. I slowly drag myself down the stairs and into the kitchen. I try to avoid eye contact with her.

".....Sweet heart?" She calls me.

"What mom?" I answered.

"I know you're sad about your father being all weird about the situation but you can't erase yourself from the family."

"Why not the family doesn't want me apart of it anyway."

"Why do you say that?"

"Because mom it's freaking true! Dad doesn't say one word to me, you only care if I eat and go to school. Bailey is the only one who still treats me like family."

"You've got to understand Alan this was a shocker to all of us and we are still trying to wrap our heads around all of this."

"I've always felt like the black sheep of the family.....Bailey has always been the golden child because she does so amazingly good in school and I've been living with that for my entire life now and I admit to being gay and that only just isolates me even more."

"Alan we still love you tremendously....I remember when I first had you. The nurse told us you were the smallest baby she'd ever seen. I carried you to full term but for some reason you were very tiny. Me and Edward thought maybe you'll have some disorder that'll keep you from growing, then in 2nd grade you actually were the tallest kid in there."

"So what are you trying to say, I grow funny or something."

"Hunny I'm saying you've always been different and this is just another one of those times were you're just different and I've learn to get use to it. I love you Alan and as your mom I don't care if you're gay I just want you to be happy."

"Want me happy? You sure have a funny way of showing that. I ...... don't have an appetite anymore." I said getting up and going to my room.

I heard Bailey go into her room and I went to ask her for her phone. I honestly don't know why I haven't thought of this sooner.

"Bailey can I use your phone?"

"Sure why?"

"I need to text Steven...."

"They still have your phone?"

"Yes..."

"Well sure here you go."

"Thank you." I went back into my room and quickly shot Steven a message.

'Hey Steven it's Alan....I'm still on lock down but I'm ready to just ditch this place are you home?'
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'Yeah I just came home from practice what's up?'

'I'm coming over.....I don't want to be here'

'Well you're always welcome...come over'

I packed a bag and I snuck passed my mom's room but she stopped me. I quickly dropped the bag in the hallway.

"Yeah?"

"I'm going to talk to your dad when he gets home alright."

"Mom that isn't going to work.....he's very stubborn."

"Trust me alright?"

"Yeah sure." I continued on my journey. I decided to catch the bus since taking the car would be to risky. I felt my blood boiling in my veins as I waited for the bus. I've never ran away before and I didn't know how it would go over. The bus finally came and I was eager to get on and go away. I wasn't planning on coming back or seeing this family ever again.