10 Minutes

Dead and Buried

Sanem lay wrapped in Cans embrace after having made love twice more. She had fallen asleep but woke up at the sound of the rain hitting the sand. She felt a gentle laziness in her body and yet felt free and whole for the first time in over two years. She turned and watched as he slept with his head just slightly above hers, she smiled as she stared at the features of his face she had seen so many times in her dreams. He was the most beautiful man she had ever laid eyes on and to think that he was here with her now made her shake her head with wonder. She loved him and she knew that he loved her. This should have only caused her joy but she also knew that they had much to discuss. Much to clear up and much to forgive still. She had revealed her heart and soul to him but that was half the battle. Now they would need to stand by each other as all the pieces of the puzzle were slowly put back into place. That entailed their families. She knew of the troubles with his and the truth about hers, was that they didn't have much good to say about him anymore, as far as she knew they still hated him. She longed for the time when they could be together without drama and simply live out their lives as any young couple would want to do but the specter of fear still loomed over her. When they got home she would find the strength to tell him all of her story and only then could they begin to discuss anything related to any future they might have. She feared that this might be the beginning of the end but she had decided that it was worth the fight. He was worth it. Their love was worth the fight. She was lost in her thoughts when she felt his hands roam over her tender breasts and squeeze them with urgency. She gasped at how quick he was when he pressed in behind her and used his other hand to roam freely over her her while he attacked her neck with hot wet kisses. Her body ignited with each caress, each kiss and with every murmuring of his voice. She was lost in a sea of passion and her lingering fears were temporarily pushed aside by the waves of love that overwhelmed her. "Can... please... i need you...""Sanem... I've needed you everyday, every moment that we have been separated. You were made for only me". This time their love making was slow and almost reverent. They stared into one another's eyes speaking volumes. "If you will have me, for as long as forever, I will never make the mistake of leaving your side again. I love how you feel wrapped around me. I love how your eyes glow when you say my name. The touch of your lips to my bare skin make me yearn for the goodness of you. Your essence, your body, your mind and your heart. Nothing has ever felt this good. You are my love and my home Sanem. I will never let you go again Birtanem. Never". Sanem watched his face as he watched her intently, every movement of his lips, the tentative smile and then the open mouthed hesitant way he waited for her to respond. She wanted to hug him close and never let him go, take him into her deepest self and inprison him there. "I would chain you to me if that would keep you forever by my side". He pressed his forehead to hers and moved his body gently over hers, "there is no need for chains my love, I am yours.Tied to you with the invisible chord that is our love". She traced the muscles of his neck and then slowly lifted her hand to his bearded face and caressed him as he pushed into her. "Can.... I love you so much it scares me. Every cell in my body recognizes you and wants nothing more than to be near you but I'm still afraid". She felt his body still and felt the breath leave his lips near her temple. "Sanem... I understand. I'm asking for the world. The irony is not lost on me my sweetest love that you gave me the world once before. You gave me your love, your heart, your soul and your body and I? I stupidly rejected it when life presented me with a challenge. You were mine. All mine and I pushed you away. I will never be able to forgive myself for that. I suppose you may never be able to fully forgive me either". She suddenly felt alone again as she lay naked beneath him and it made her feel the same loneliness that she had when she awoke alone in his bed in the cabin only to find he was gone. She felt the desperation course through her that she felt when she had tried to reach him but he had already abandoned her. She then felt the anger of the final betrayal when she called him only to have the call answered by a woman in the very early hours of the morning. All those feeling flooded through her in what seemed like an instant. The weight and heat of his body was nearly suffocating. She felt him mentally pulling away from her and her fears became realized. She was ready to fight for their love but he didn't know how too. He had learned to run when things seemed too difficult to surmount. The thought of having made a mistake once again seemed to pound into her mind and so she pressed her hand against his chest, using all her strength to push him away. She needed to get up. To move away from him, to regain some control of her shattered heart once more. She had allowed him into her heart and this is what had come of it. She had foolishly given herself to him again. This time she was to blame for allowing it. This would never work and the realization of it made her want to scream and cry and curse herself for her weakness. When it came to him she was no better than any of the females who sought his attention. She realized then that she was screaming at him and pushing him and squirming beneath, thrashing about as her head moved from side to side in anger and desperation to free herself from his possessive hold on her but he hadn't released her. Instead she felt his weight push down on her further, his hands tighten their hold on hers that pushed against him and finally his mouth took possession of her in a kiss that was both hard and punishing as it was desperate and sensuous. She couldn't allow him control, not again. She turned her face trying to escape his mouth but it was useless. He was relentless. His tongue fought a battle of wills over hers as it pursued hers, trapping her, making her succumb. His hand meanwhile claimed hers and now pulled them right above her head keeping her in place as he nestled between her flailing legs once more. She felt his hard manhood and how good it felt to have him want her so badly. She felt the pounding of his heart against her breasts that only wanted his touch. She felt her traitorous body come alive as he finally lifted his mouth from hers. "Don't mistake my repentance for lack of conviction and determination to win you back. I know it won't be easy. I know you have every right and reason to turn me down. I know I'm not worthy of you but I won't ever give up. I won't let you go. I won't leave you again. I won't betray you once more and I won't love another. I haven't loved another since you. I couldn't. I didn't want to. There has only ever been you since their was you in my life. Only you. You can reject me with you mind and with your reason but your heart and body will always be mine. They know that I am yours and that you are mine. Please say that your willing to let me love you for the rest of our lives. I don't deserve you but I'm unwilling to let you go. Not now and not ever".