The Boy Savior - Ekko x Reader - Season 1

Chapter 28

"Are you being serious right now?" You asked as you had thrown the blanket off your body. It felt heavier than it should have - probably because you hadn't moved a single muscle of yours for days. Every single inch of you felt sore.

"Yeah, I'm dead serious." Ekko stepped towards you to look into your eyes, maybe even trying to intimidate you, but you stood his gaze. He towered above you as you were still sitting, but that only made you angrier.

"I shouldn't have let you go out with the others..." he started again but you cut him off right away.

"Oh, so it is completely and only my fault now that I ended up here?" you put your legs to the ground by the side of the bed temperamentally. It annoyed you that you felt like - after almost murdering you, Scar and Raven - he was somehow trying to protect her... You just wished you weren't feeling so weak... "You should be thanking me! I saved us this time..."

"You clearly don't know your own limits..." he continued. You felt your face and ears reddening - you were sure that if he continued saying things like this, you'd blew up soon. "I won't let you..."

"Could you please stop acting like I'm your damn property?!" you stood up to be able to look into his eyes properly, but you were too fast and the black dots immediately started dancing in front of your eyes. You blinked rapidly to get rid of them and pushed away Ekko's worried arms that reached for you right away when he saw you stumbled. "I don't need you to boss me around! I - and the others - needed you to be there!" you yelled. You didn't feel like crying and yet tears of anger burned your eyes as you raised your chin even higher. "But all you've been doing is trying to get rid of... of everything! The firelights, your friends, this place! Me..." you lowered your voice at the last word.

"What the hell are you talking about?" Ekko asked perplexed. "I would never want to get rid of you, why on earth do you think that?" He furrowed his brows in his confusion and as much as you didn't want to say out loud what you'd been thinking for days, there was no stopping now and the words just flowed out of you.

"This whole thing with the z-drive... How can you not realize that what you're trying to achieve is to conjure away what you have now..." you said and cursed yourself silently for the shake in your voice. You felt selfish as you tried to put yourself into the boy's shoes. You remembered how happy he was the day he created the device. And wouldn't you probably try to get back what you had lost, if you'd seen even the slightest chance?

You knew that jealousy was talking out of you as well. You just felt that... that he would be ready to exchange you for her any moment if he had the chance... And it hurt you... After everything... It really hurt you...

But could you blame him? Jinx was to him, what he was to you. A first love, who also grew up to be beautiful, while you were, well, just you... Could you ever compete with that? Now especially, that he realized that Jinx and Powder were still the same person, no matter how hard Ekko had been trying to deny it for so many years... And he had a device now, that could literally turn back time...

You looked at the young firelight standing in front of you and your heart ached. The sounds of people going by their days outside hit your ears, and as you thought about everything, you were sure about the answer to your own question was no. There were people now who needed your help and that wouldn't change either if you went back in time. You just wouldn't be there for them anymore...

How could Ekko forget about his own people? So many of them wouldn't even be alive without him. He was the one who kept telling you that you shouldn't dwell on the past and now he himself seemed to be completely getting lost in it.

"I'm not..." Ekko started but couldn't find his words. "You don't understand..." he said under his nose and you knew what he was talking about. But he wasn't the only one who had lost everything in one, single day. You just had to think about the mural outside with the countless of portraits... Or yourself...

"Trust me, Ekko, I do." you said in a low voice. "In fact, I think, every single person here understands..." you saw him raise his head towards you but you turned away ready to walk out of the room.

You felt tired and worn out again. All you wanted to do was just lay back down to a bed and bury yourself under the covers. And just stay there. Hidden from everyone's eyes. Alone. Safe from anyone that could ever hurt you again...

You started walking towards his door with heavy legs and an even heavier heart. You couldn't get to him - maybe now was the time to just distance yourself from Ekko. For your own sake. It was obvious that he didn't need you like you needed him and, again, you didn't want to become anyone's burden...

"Y/N, wait..." Ekko asked you and you heard him step towards you when your hand grabbed the knob on his door. But you didn't stop. You didn't even act like you heard him, even though all you wanted to do at that moment was just to turn back, hug him and say that you didn't care if he didn't love you like you loved him...

He didn't need you - you reminded yourself as you opened his door and stepped outside with your whole body shaking helplessly, leaving him on his own in the fading afternoon lights.

//A/N.: Looks like angst is back on the menu boys!

Ps.: Guys!!! We are beautiful too! ♥♥ We are just having a little crisis and that's why we don't believe we could compete with Jinx's beauty.

Psps.: I'm so sorry for not replying! I see and read all your comments and I love you guys so much!! But there's been so much work lately that I hardly have time to have my phone in my hands T-T I had write this while traveling to work and home, so I'm sorry if it there are parts that suck T-T//