Forever And Always (Book 1)

•Twelve•

My eyes flutter open to the sun peering into the room. I stretch my arms and I hear shuffling coming from the kitchen.

"Good morning" Sky beams at me with a Starbucks in her hand.

"Morning. When'd you get Starbucks?"

"Just a few minutes ago" She informs me while handing me a cup. "Got your favorite"

"I love how you just know what our usuals are" I smile as I sip my iced coffee.

"Well, yours was quite easy, since we order the same thing, but I have know you guys for about two months"

"Ugh fuck" I turn around to see Logan clutching his head with a groan.

"Mornin'" Sky giggles and walks over to him with some pills and a glass of water. I hear him mumble a thanks as he takes them.

"Cassie and Clove are already up by the way" She says then sits with Logan.

I slouch down in the middle of Matt and Josh a the stir in their sleep.

I then hear Dylan slowly get up and Sky passed him some pills and water to.

"Remind me to never drink again" He says after he gulps down all the water.

"Josh, time to wake up" I whisper to him and poke his nose.

"Fuck off" He groans then clutches his stomach.

"C'mon Josh" He finally gives in and he opens his eyes. "Here" Sky passes him another glass of water and he instantly pops the pills in his mouth, along with the water.

"I feel like I'm going to puke" Matt says, just as Clove and Cassie enter the room.

"Ugh. Please don't do it here" Cassie tells him making a face.

"And I would kill you, if you did" Clove warns.

"Yeah yeah. Whatever"

The boys decide to get a bit more rest and the girls and I just sit around in the kitchen. I remember last nights events with Josh and Tiffany.

It bad enough that he probably doesn't like me back. Who am I kidding? Of course he doesn't like me. Who would ever fall for someone like me, when you could have someone like Tiffany.

She's got a great body, amazing hair that's always done perfectly and a pretty face. When I'm just boring old Jessica.

God, even my name is boring!

I continue to think about the situation and I feel like I'm falling into a deep hole. I notice everything about me. About how imperfect I am.

To how my stomach isn't completely flat to how chubby my thighs are. I know these are only the little things, but they make a huge difference.

I just stare at my Starbucks and place it down on a near by table, not wanting to look at it anymore.

"So, what do you wanna do today?" Clove asks.

"I dunno" Sky replies with a shrug. "Let's just stay home and watch movies. I mean, the boys are still kinda hung over so we can't really go anywhere"

"I guess you're right. I'm going to go check up on Matt"

"Dude, you so have a crush on him" Cassie chuckles making Clove cross her arms over her chest before simply saying,

"Well, maybe I do maybe I don't"

"Ooooh. I so ship it, hashtag Catt" Sky smiles and we all laugh.

"Well, what about you and Logan" Cove smirks at her direction.

"What about me and Logan?" Sky sasses back.

"Yeah, what about her and Logan?" Josh says from behind us, making us all jump in fright.

"Oh, um nothing...?" Cassie quickly says with a nervous tone. "How much did you hear?"

"Well, I now know that Clove may or may not like Matt" He says with a sly smile, making Clove groan and burry her face in her palms. "Anyways, Logan and I want food"

"Then go order some take out or whatever" Clove's voice is muffled from her hands as she speaks.

"Ugh, fine" He turns to the other direction and walks away.

"But, seriously, do you have a crush on Matt?" I ask, once Josh is out of ear shot.

She shrugs and continues sipping her drink. We all stare her down, making her give in.

"Fine! Yes, I might have the smallest crush on him..." She admits, trailing off at the end. A smirk forms on all our faces and Clove puts her pointer finger in the air. "But that doesn't mean I have feelings for him!"

"Yeah, that's what Jess said, now look at her" Cassie chuckles and I shot her an icy glare.

"Shut up Cass" I mumble under my breath.

"I think we should give him a code name" Sky randomly says, making us look at her.

"A code name? Sky, we're not kids" Cassie chuckles as she rolls her eyes.

"Well excuse you, you of all people should know that I'm a kid at heart! Sky protests. "I also think we should give Josh one to, just 'cause" She turns to Clove, before quickly asking her what the first thing tat comes into her head.

Clove stutters a bit before yelling out, "Bam bam"

"Seriously?" Sky asks with a hint of a giggle in her words.

"Eh" Clove shrugs. "At least it wasn't like, 'Peanut pickle jar'"

We all give her questioning looks and glance at each other while Clove is giggling at her sentence.

"Okay... Bam bam it is..." Sky says, still looking at her best friend with a raised eyebrow before pointing at me. "So would you guys' ship be like, Jam jam?"

"Oh my god! So calling you Jam jam now!" Cassie exclaims as she points a finger at my face then poking my nose.

"And you call me weird" Clove mumbles under her breathe, making Sky and I laugh and Cassie stick out her tongue.

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Idk what's happening anymore... #Jamjam