Taboo: Bittersweet Revenge (Sequel)

Dangerous Temptations

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"Oh my god..." I whispered as I rushed up the long flights of stairs. Running as fast as I could to towards Christian's room, I could barely have time to speculate what he's thinking right now.

But I don't know for sure because when I'm finally there, his door was locked. I slam my fist repeatedly onto the door but he doesn't answer. "Open this door! Christian!!! Please open the door!!" I begged from the other side of the door.

Yet still no reply. I begin ramming my shoulder against the thick door, but to no avail. Finally I step back and attempt to kick the door open. And to my surprise, the door busted wide open as some wood splinters project to the floor at the sudden impact.

Christian is hunched down at the end of the bed, with a gun in his hands. I walk over to his slowly, his eyes stay glued on the gun. And I knew all to well what he was thinking. Thankfully he hasn't pulled the trigger on himself yet. Or was I speaking too soon?

I crouch down between his knees but he still makes no attempt to look at me, keeping them firmly on the gun. "You need to stay away from me...please.." Was all he said as he slowly raised the gun. I scramble quickly and both of my hands grip the side of his large hand, gently lowering the gun from his head.

"I can't live with myself, everything I've done to you....You deserve more than this... It's better this way, for the both of us.." He admitted in a broken voice as he attempts to raise the gun again but I'm quick to deny him the opportunity.

A waterfall of tears cascade down my cheeks as I listen to him. "Can you honestly tell me anyone loved me enough to care when I'm gone..?" He reveals but I cut him off.

"There are people that care about you. There are people that depend on you. Do it for Austin. Do it for the countless lives you could save once we defeat my father. Do it for Heath. He wouldn't want you to go out this way...." I urged him through a shaky voice, and my heartrate skyrockets. It was now or never!

"Do it for me...!" I yell out. "For me. Do it for the woman that loves you" I admitted. His eyes immediately shoot up. This was the first I have ever confessed it. But it was all true. Every word of it. "Christian, I don't want to see someone I love die again".

His icy blue eyes reveal a shimmer, like a small glimspe of hope. But he was still too damn shocked about my confession. "I'm not ready to lose you...ever!" I confess as I attempt to take the gun out of his grip, and to my surprise, he allows me to. "I've already lost someone I love and I can't through that again..." I say before I completely break down in tears.

"I won't survive without you..." I cried as pulled the gun away from the both of us, as it slams against the wall. My hands grip the sides of his extremely defined jawline, attempting to intertwine our eyes.

And when they finally do, I can say the words blankly. "I love you Christian. And I'm never going to leave you. No matter what happened us in the past, I promise I will never see you in that light again. I've loved you all along...." I admitted. And it felt so damn good to finally let it go. To release all these pent up feelings and emotions.

His gorgeous blue eyes are still in a state shock and disbelief. I had waited so long for this, to finally admit it. Say something.....It terrified that he still hasn't said a word yet. I sit on his knee and wipe away his anguished tears.

His breath hitches as my fingers touch his face. I think at that moment, we both felt it. A release. We both had tremendous weights lifted off our shoulders.

I wipe away the tears flowing from his enigmatic blue eyes. And for the first time, my finger traces the outline of his scar. I'm surprised at just how deep it is. The story behind this wound was one I would never forget. The betrayal he must've felt.