I'm tired I'm absolutely exhausted
And it's not the kind of tired sleep can fix
No this exhaustion runs deep into my soul in my inner most being
This exhaustion goes beyond the physical
It's mental, emotional, spiritual
It's lack of joy for life
It's lack of interest in anything
It's being completely worn down by the constant battle I fight every day inside my head
It's feeling like giving up every second and wonder why I'm still trying
It's the depletion of happiness from my life
It's the suffocating of energy to the smallest of tasks
It's me putting whatever part of me is left into things that I don't love and that doesn't benefit me
It's feeling so hopeless and worthless and alone
It's the feeling of trying so hard and putting everything I have into something and it still not being enough
It's the never ending train of thoughts that runs it's way through my head constantly
It's the constant worry of if I have a purpose and why I'm here?
It's the self hatred I feel so strongly that makes me hate every part of myself
It's the mental illness I have now became addicted to because I'd so use to do it and I don't know who I am without it
It's the question of should I really wake up and so this again tomorrow
Is it worth it ?
What's the point?
Because right now I don't see one
So ya
Im tired
