I think that sadness can be an addicting feeling I've been sad for so long that when it returns it feels like an old friend and I know that seems quiet morbid but crying into my own arms the ones I know will hold me I can finally collapse into myself the feeling of nothingness when im done and sometimes when I'm alone I sit in the sadness the memories flooding in faster then I can take time to breathe drowning in the moments that I can never relieve it feels as if I'm dying, but sometimes the pain is what reminds me I'm alive
