Because I've always known I was different not in a sense that I'm not normal but more so that I can't grasp the feeling of this life everyone around me will disappear at one point the tiers that I've shed will never matter when the population is wiped
my mind is wired uniquely because today I'm a new person today I'm confused I'm torn between reality of it all witch is just a figment of my imagination yesterday I was lived I was ashamed of the person I used to be or more so that I haven't changed at all I still do things I'm not found of in order to please people I put on a smile and spend hours rehearsing how to act in front of random people I will never speck to again and I'm angry because I have to pretend as if I'm interested in there boring conversations I've always known I was different because everyone seams to know how the world works but I fell as tho this world is pointless and matter less I don't care about your judgment I don't want to hear you you thoughts every word you say is meaning less to me because I know your just talking to talk and although I can't tell what's real and fake and I never will be able to figure that out I will say that tomorrow I'll be intrigued I'll realise something new and I'll force myself to act like everything is okay
I've always known I was different because I'm not plain every morning I wake up as a brand new person it's not convincingly normal but at ;east it's better then being boring
