I think that the hardest thing about recovering from an eating disorder is wishing that you weren't it's hard to understand unless you've gone through it because how could I miss the thing that tried to kill me how can I miss I was back in the depths when I've already seen the light why is it that every time I see someone skinnier then me I can't help but think how skinny I could be if I just
stoped and what do you do when it made itself the glue that help you together and what do you say when each time you pray it;s to go back to what once was and how do youknow that it'time to let go when your mind it screaming at you to hold on for dear life
reality doesn't come with rose colored glass it comes with fights you'll regret your whole life and tears that momentarily shed all your fears and laughts that have you doubling over in half and maybe that's how and why because I promise it's with it to feel those low highs and to feel those low lows because as soon as you see just what you could be maybe it won't feel so hard anymore.
