I can't tell if it's just a phase like everything else is these days all I know is that I want it to go away I can't tell if it's all in my head or if I should have just gone to bed I don't know if my friends care or if it's all just fake I don't think I could even reach out and take what I need to get better I don't know if I want concern or just to be alone I'm lonely inside all of the time though my serotonin shouldn't cost the dime and I can't seem to find any at all my smiles are fake to make my loved ones won't call I want to escape from reality but I'm too scared to erase myself so now I sit and suffer I can't tell if anything is wrong because I was ignored for so long I told myself I was fine and no one bothered to correct me are all my problems even real what the hell is wrong with me happy it's not even that hard so maybe I should just be discarded all of these problems inside my head happen everyday of the week the voices are also loud and the noise has left me weak the overthinking has marred my brain so that I ought to have scar then at least we can see and help me figure out why I'm so upset even over someone I barely I barely meet I feel so much all the time when I'd rather not feel at all and so I think I'm really starting to fall into a teenage depression
