Tokyo Ghoul: Regina

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Arita

"Hey, Arita." I hear a voice behind me. It was Naito. I was on my way out of the building after a meeting.
"Hey, what are you doing here?" I asked her.
"Me and Tsukiyama just had a small chat." She replied. "Can we talk?'
"Oh, sure." I answered.

We started walking to the train station. It was silent for a few minutes as we started walking down. She looks a little off, not typical of the normal Naito I would come across and know. Loud, brash, always wanting to fight and mock people.
"You okay?" I asked her.
"Arita, I'm sorry." She stopped.
"For what?"
"How mean I was to you, how I treated you these years," she turned around. "I was so harsh." Naito has always been the tough love person, I'll say. She was rude to me, and I was rude to her back. I still have the words she told me years ago when I left the squad for a period of time.
"I never liked you anyway." Was what she told me. I remember hearing from Jirou that he screamed at her because of it.
"Naito, " I said to her. "You don't have to apologize, it actually should've been me that did the apologizing."
"I was so blinded with jealousy and everything." She told me. "I was so jealous and hateful, because I knew you were in love with Jirou." Which made me pause. All this time.
"That's really it?" I got more upset. "All this because of love?" Naito nods. "I thought I did something bad all this time, and it was all because of Jirou?"
"Because I loved him too." She said.
"You are pathetic." I replied.
"But, Arita, I'm sorry, I'm just sorry for being an asshole to you all these years!" She bows. "Please forgive me!" Shes really sorry. Although, I find it really dumb that she hated me all this time because of some stupid love. I mean, I really thought it was me that did something all along, cause that's how I usually was, pissing people off and not taking orders. However, I can tell it really meant something to Naito. She was close to Kishimoto, and I sort of wish I knew the jealousy she had harbored towards me for a while now, cause this wouldn't have happened.
"Naito," I went up to her. I hugged her as she kept crying. "I forgive you."

Naito decided to make it up for me by helping me train my kagune. She was known for having a dark blue kagune that looked like a fish, kind of from what I've seen. I was blessed with a koukaku kagune from my donor, shaped as the wings of a dove from what Reina told me, but from what I remember, it is rare for it to resemble something like that. I can barely remember it though, I don't remember every time I use it, I pass out from it. I don't think I have the strength for it.
"You keep passing out because you need to eat more." Naito tells me. "When Jirou was younger, that's what happened to him."
"Eat more? I just can't bring myself to do that yet." I said to her.
"Plus, you suck at fighting, that's the reason you're a ghoul in the first place."
She's right, I was trying to claw Reina's way out of the thick flesh, from what I can remember, and then I got impaled in the stomach.
"I just can't really bring myself to do it, I don't know how most ghouls, especially people like me, are able to jump into this lifestyle right now." I told her.
"I personally have to cannibalize because that's how I get stronger." She sat by me. "That's how I survived back in the 24th Ward, how most of us survived, you had to eat the weaker to become stronger, I haven't had human food until I was thirteen."
"How did you and Jirou meet?" I asked her, which made her a little surprised.
"He damn near bit my hand off, he just turned into a ghoul and I just escaped the 24th ward when the dragon was unleashed," she tells me. "He was so hungry, I knew, but, I let him eat my hand." She shows me her hand. "Ate right to the bone."
"Oh Jesus."
"Sometimes you have to sacrifice yourself to help others, because look at where we are now." She says, smiling at me. "Kishimoto told me your sacrifice many years ago, that's why we're here now."
"Naito, please help me, I want to get stronger."

"You two have been hanging out a lot." Reina says to me about me and Naito hanging out.
"Well, we just wanted to get to know each other more, we never hung out when we were younger." I replied.
"I thought this whole Jirou thing would make you two split and I'd have to hold you both away from each other like children." She says which makes me blush hard. "Yeah, I know, kid."
"It's not like that.." I put my head into the palms of my head.
"Oh I think it is." She sits down by me. "Now come on, I've known you since you were sixteen, you got to at least tell me something." She sips her drink. I clench onto my skirt as I'm shaking.
"Oh god, am I really in love?"
"There we go." She laughs. Classic Reina, she would have this tactic of silence and stare, to make you think about it and then it hits you. "
"I knew Naito would think that." I said. "She's Jirou's closest friend."
"Have you talked about this to Jirou?" She asked me, to where I remember the night before she woke up. We fell asleep crying on each other, he was constantly saying how much he missed me.
"No." I said to her straight up. "I made it clear to myself when I was selected to be in this squad, I wouldn't get with anyone." Which was true.
"You know, I made it clear with everyone that dating in this squad or in general is pretty much a taboo, but, if you keep it under wraps, I would not mind it." She says to me. "Go with your heart, Kaito."

Ever since my academy days, with all of us when we were younger, I was always paired with Jirou all the time. I didn't wonder at the time, but thought it was just under circumstances or similarity between us two.
"So you're a human?" He asked me one time during study hall.
"Yeah?" I said with confusion. "Why'd you ask?"
"I was just wondering, there really aren't that many humans in the Academg now than from what I read in old CCG books that Usui gave me."
"Because most of them turned into ghouls or quinx." I answered.
"Why not you?"
"I was already under protection, I wasn't exposed to that stuff." I folded my arms.
"They do have that special surgery, why aren't you getting it like Amano?" He asked me.
"I want to be a pure human, isn't that fine?"
"I think people who know who they are even better." He says. "I don't know why people got so pissed over it in the past, we are who we are, so why not embrace that? So what if you're a ghoul or a human, we're here for a purpose."
Those words really stuck with me for years, especially now since I'm a half ghoul. I still feel my humanity onto me on some parts of myself. I still feel onto the past that brought me here, how I got here, the people I've met, and the people that were lost. I still feel the memories of my mother and father sometimes, and wonder what life would be like if they never got murdered. Would I be a peace officer still? Could I have not become a ghoul? Would I ever meet Reina? Would I ever cross paths with Jirou? Maybe this path was the best thing for me, maybe being human was just the beginning for my life.

"Amano! You mixed up the paper work again!" Usui hits him with her little hands.
"I'm sorry, I was half asleep when I was doing them." He laughed.
"It's going to take me forever now to put them where they belong again!"
"Sounds like a married couple you know." Toyama laughs as I watch on.
"What's going on this time?" Jirou comes around, to which I get flustered.
"Just Amano being Amano again." Toyama tells him. "You'd think after all the years of being in a squad with him you'd think he get a little bit brighter?"
"I guess not." Jirou says. "Yo, Kaito." He turns to me.
"Yeah?" I fold my arms. I felt anxious with what he was going to say.
"Thanks for saving my ass again with the meeting tips." He gives me a thumbs up.
"Oh, oh it's no big deal." I blushed.
"You're always going to be our life saver." He tells me.