my new family

The horror called memories

Taehyung pov-

I looked around bored but then I felt a hand rubbing my thighs. I shot my head the direction, only to spot sara looking at me intensely. It would be a lie that I didn't enjoy it but it also brought back horrific memories of past.

I never told anyone but once, when everyone was out for work, I stayed due to fever. I was 14 at that time. The woman we used to call as mom, raped me that day. The fever made me too weak to fight back. She tied me up with ropes and ripped my clothes. She chose such a time that there was no one I could call for help.

She pleasured herself until she was satisfied then she cleaned me up and untied me. She threw my teddy next to me and I cuddled it in fear.

She bribed the doctor to tell my father that I was severely infected and only one person should attend me and to my horror she volunteered. She raped me for many days and whenever dad or hyungs would visit me, she injected me with something and my body became stiff, I could not move or speak.

One day she maybe had an argument with dad and came to hit me. She hit me so aggressively that I yelped in pain despite that numbing injection. It was then that dad saw the devil in her. He enquired the other boys and they confirmed that she had been hitting them too in his absence.

Dad took no longer than an instant and reported her for domestic violence on children and divorced her. All of them had each-other during the torture, but I was like a captive she held in my own room. They tried to cheer me up and it did help but I closed my heart for any woman. Arrival of Ms. Yoo, our mother now, warmed up my heart. She held me protectively while I cried secretly in fear. She knows about me being tortured for the longest and still being affected by it but just like anyone else, she doesn't know about the rape.

I have since then opened my heart to only two women and they are now my mother and sister. Allowing new person in my life is something I need to prepare myself for.

While I was busy dealing with my horrifying memories, sara had already let go of my thigh and cupped my cheeks. Maybe I showed my horror to her. She didn't say a word and pulled my head, resting it on her chest. She placed her chin on my head and caressed my hair.

"Whatever it is, you are fine now. You are safe. Relax. No one is there. You are safe, no one can see you right now. Just let it go. Let it flow out." She whispered, still caressing my head. I snuggled more into her and wrapped my hand around her waist. She used her other hand to pat my back gently. I silently cried on her chest. And it was relieving for me. I forgot everything as slumber slowly took over. Her embrace was as warm as my brothers', my parents' and my sister's. Her arms around me made me feel complete, but I was still scared of the past. When Jin hyung woke me, I saw that she was sleeping, her hands still caressing my hairs in sleep. I smiled and woke her up. We turned our heads as we heard Jungkook yelp when Jin hyung pulled his ear. He told me to guide the girls to guest room and sent Jungkook to his room.