my new family

Breakup

When I reached home, I found all 7 of them waiting for me. I made a gloomy face as I rushed to my room without even greeting them, something that gets them worried. After I changed into sweatpants, I heard a knock. I again made a sad face and said "come in." in a low voice.

"Angel, is something wrong?" Jimin oppa came in the room and asked in worry.

"Oppa!" I said in a sad tone and rushed to hug him.

"Angel? What happened? Did someone hurt you? Seo Jun? did he shout again? I am gonna chop off his baby factory if he hurt you." He said as he lifted me in a princess hug and moved towards the living room. [I find the term bridal hug absurd in siblings' context so instead I will use princess hug.]

His words made me laugh but then I remembered about the prank and again made a sad face. I seemed as if I was trying to laugh out the pain, but failed miserably. He looked at me in pity and gently placed me on the sofa to sit between him and tae oppa.

"Bun, have you cried?" Jungkook oppa asked as his fingers traced the redness caused by the soap that went in my eye accidently. Thank God. It's more believable now. I internally smirked and let out some tears cause by the same soap that is now stinging my eyes.

"We....... We broke up." I said feeling depressed even lying about it, an actual tear escaped my eyes at the thought of losing my love, again.

Namjoon oppa hurriedly came forward and hugged me, "it's gonna be okay but can you tell us what happened so we can get you back together? Humm?" he spoke in a calm yet scared voice, scared of my panic attack.

"I was scared of him, so I avoided him, tae-hyung shi was always there so he didn't come closer but today he came and told me that we were better off as friends. He said that this relationship is too much to handle."

"I will..." hobi oppa got up angry.

"Oppa, no." I spoke in a low voice.

"But he has hurt your sunshine, see how much you love him that you want to protect him even now. I won't let him do this to you." He spoke in voice full of concern and fear of me getting hurt.

"I'm not crying because of that. I- I don't, just- that I-" I tried speaking but stumbled on my own words, scared of the outcome.

"Kitten, does something bother you?" yoon-gi oppa asked as he pulled me on his laps. He stroked my hair and said "you know that you can tell us whenever you need us."

I set aside the guilt and hugged him tightly, not wanting to face them while I continued, "I feel numb. I don't feel sad that we broke up. I am relieved instead. I am crying because I am confused. I am crying because it feels like I cheated on seo Jun, I liked someone else while dating him, he never deserved that. I hate myself because I think love someone I shouldn't."

"What do you mean bun? Don't you like seo Jun?"

"I do. But this past week when we were away, I realised that I just admire him, I don't love him that way." I spoke while hanging my head low.

"And what do you mean by saying that you love someone you shouldn't?" Jin oppa said in his attempt to calm me down and he once again pulled me on sofa to sit between him and tae oppa.

"I can't tell you guys; you will hate me if you know." I spoke, trying to look sad.

"Bear you are the only girl on this entire planet that we love. How can we hate you huh? Just let it out you will feel calm after sharing your burden." He said and squeezed my hand.

"You won't hate me, right? Promise me that you won't leave me." I said and extended my hand, asking for his assurance. He placed his palm on mine and gently held it.