my new family

Regret

"joon, i-" she started speaking.

"I understand. I'm sorry. I should have asked you first." He said and stepped out of the balcony, not wanting her to know that he felt ashamed of himself.

"no!" she tugged his hand by rushing after him. "no joonie." She read through him. She tried explaining him but it seemed as if he shut his ears. Nothing seemed to make him feel better.

"I'll need to leave for a moment please." He said and shrugged her hand off his wrist, taking long strides to his room.

He entered the room and locked himself. Once again, he took off to stand in front of the mirror and stared at himself of good minute.

"fucking idiot." He hissed at the reflection and landed a slap on his cheek.

"you disappointed her." Another slap.

"you almost forced her." Another slap.

"she is angry at you." Another slap.

"she will avoid you now." slap.

"you will lose her." slap.

"she will hate you." slap.

"I hate you." slap.

He alternative slapped both his cheeks, turning them red. They were swollen and the tip of lips started bleeding.

"fucking bastard!" he exclaimed at himself. "I hate my fucking self."

sorry for the short chapter! i have been busy with assingments and my hands didnt have the strength to type.