The Tasks of the Moon Goddess

Chapter 35

Author's note: The image is Ian.

The next morning I woke up to Viktor rubbing my back. I laid there enjoying his comforting touch for a minute before he asked, "are you still mad at me?"

"Yes," I said.

"Do you really think I would leave you in the dark if it wasn't necessary?" He asked.

"No," I said.

"Do you trust me?" He asked.

"Yes," I said.

"Then why are we having a problem?"

"Trusting you does not stop me from wanting to know what's going on," I said. "You guys keep talking about me and it's freaking me out."

"I'll tell you one thing Mr. Johnson said. He said that you didn't want to have this baby. Is that true?"

"In a way," I said.

"In what way?" He asked.

"I didn't want to be having children so young."

"Do you want to terminate the pregnancy now?" He asked.

"I wouldn't go that far. I'm just not prepared to be a mother. With all that's going on, I'm afraid. On the other hand, they'll have you so I'm not worried."

"You carrying around these negative emotions, it's not good for you or the baby. You have to find a way to release it," he said.

I went upstairs and took a shower. I got dressed in a v-neck solid ruffle hem smock dress in green with some brown bohemian beach wedding sandals. I was heading down for breakfast when I had the first cramp. It was quite painful. I had to hold on to Viktor to remain upright while I clutched my stomach.

"What's wrong?" He asked, looking very worried.

"A cramp," I said, squeezing his hand.

He took me to the hospital for a check up. The doctor said I needed to stay for observation. Another cramp seized my stomach. Viktor called the doctor.

"It looks like you're having miscarriage," he said.

"Oh no. This is all my fault," I said.

"Twenty percent of all known pregnancies end in miscarriage. Don't think it was your fault," the doctor said.

"I'm sorry darling," Viktor said, nuzzling me.

"You must think I'm a terrible person after all I said. It's like I cursed myself," I said.

"No my love. This is not your fault," he said kissing me.

I started to cry. I wanted to leave. Be in the comfort of my own home while this horrible thing was happening.

"We're going to flush you out and then you'll be free to go," the doctor said.

Viktor held my hand during the procedure as I cried. He rubbed my head and I felt guilty at the level of comfort I felt leading me to cry harder.

"You should be good to try again after you stop bleeding. Gotta love that werewolf healing," the doctor said. " Just come back in a week for a follow up."

"Thank you doctor," Viktor said.

"Can I go for a run doctor?" I asked.

"I would wait until tomorrow," he said.

Viktor carried me back to our bed. I cried for the rest of the day refusing food. I was devastated at the loss. I didn't move for three days. Viktor had to clean me up. He didn't force me out of bed like he usually would do. He let me wallow for which I was grateful.