Shadow (Austin Mahone)

Chapter 55

Word Count: 1049

So I've concluded after officially changing it I'm completely in love with the cover.

So I was on instagram earlier *Cough follow me @cakes_n0t_babycakes cough* (cool name I know *flips hair*) and I saw a few pictures posted by some people I had gone to middle school with and I got pretty bummed because they're all like gorgeous and I'm like gross.

You know I was thinking and I've noticed a lot of authors doing question and answers and I kind of want to do that... like if you want you can ask questions for me because we're pretty far in the story and I feel like y'all barely know me. Depending on if I get questions and how many I get I'll post my answers. Just message me if you want to ask questions.

This is really short, and I'm sorry.

Enjoy!!

|Noah Bradley|

His hands trail down my sides making me feel dirty. He pinches my side lightly but the least bit arousing.

I only came here for Sarah. I came here with these guys to help her get over Alex but while she's having the time of her life, I'm here scared out of my mind.

"Please stop" I beg weakly, but he only chuckles.

"But where's the fun in that" He chuckles, his hand tracing my cheek as tears begin to roll down my face.

"N-nick please" I sob, but he just continues his assault. An even stronger wave of panic flows through me  as I begin to thrash my arms and scream at the top of my lungs, which seems to frustrate him.

"Shut the fuck up!" He screams and I cower away at his harsh tone "Now, I'm going to do what I want with you and you're going to stop complaining" He growls, harshly pushing my flannel off my shoulders.

I sob helplessly, knowing there's nothing else I can do.

I jolt awake, my eyes filled with tears, my breathing heavy and my hair sticking to my forehead that's glazed with sweat. I throw the covers off my body, careful not to wake Austin and trail down the steps to the kitchen. I fill up a glass with ice and unscrew the cap of my water bottle pouring it into the glass.

I sip on the cold water, my body cooling down and I hop onto the counter. I hear feet patter closer to the kitchen and I smile softly as TJ enters the kitchen.

"Hey, what are you doing up?" I ask.

"I could ask you the same thing" He chuckles.

"I just got really thirsty" I lie and he nods "Now it's your turn"

"I couldn't sleep" He shrugs and sits next to me on the counter. I lean my head on his shoulder and take another drink from my glass, the ice hitting the side making a tapping sound.

"Can I ask you something?" TJ gulps and I nod.

"Sure"

"What's up with you and Austin?"

"What do you mean?" I ask lifting my head off his shoulder.

"Like what have you two like done? Have you two like dated or something? I mean when we were in Spain he punched me and told me to stay away from you claiming you as 'his girl' and I just want to understand"

"We've kissed a few times, and stuff but we've never dated, and when he punched you its because he figured if he called me his then you'd be more prone to leave me alone I guess. Him and I aren't a thing anymore, I mean not that we were before but it's just now I have you so why do I need him?"

"Okay, I'm glad to hear that" He breathes out in relief.

"Good" I fake a smile, the guilt of lying beginning to settle in my stomach. But hen he places a soft kiss to my lips I nearly vomit at how strong the guilt becomes.

"No-Noah?" He stutters and I hum in response "I-I" He stammers.

"You what?"

"I love you" He blurts and my eyes widen in shock.

It has literally been a month.

He looks up and meets my eyes when I'm silent for a while and I see the sadness fill his eyes.

"You, you don't" He concludes.

"No, no it's not that, it's just this is so soon"

"You can't put a time on love" He smiles sadly and I mentally gag at his cheesiness.

"Correct, but you can't rush it either" I counter.

"True, but I totally understand, I just want you to know that I love you"

"TJ, I love you too" I say almost choking on the words, I didn't mean to lie, it just kind of happened. But the look on hi face when I uttered the most untruthful words my tongue could muster up, made my stomach turn.

He grins widely and presses his lips to mine, his lips still not giving me the kind of spark I get with Austin, I hate that I continue to compare him to Austin, but Austin has this kind of effect on me that is unforgettable and it's the one thing I'm looking for.

God, I hate boys.

When he pulls away, I fake a smile and hop off the counter.

"I'm going to go and try to get back to sleep"

"Oh uh okay, well goodnight" He says hopping off the counter and wrapping his arms around my body "I love you" He whispers and kisses my forehead.

"Love you too" I say mentally cringing.

I walk out of the kitchen feeling sick with myself, I've done nothing but lie to TJ, but the biggest thing that makes me sick is that I can't help but wonder, what would it sound like if Austin was the one telling me he loves me?

I sigh at my thought and walk all the way up to my room expecting to see Austin laying in my bed, but when I see my bed is empty, the emptiness settles inside of me as I walk to my bed and crawl under my blankets, praying to finally get some sleep.

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I hope you guys liked this chapter!

I love you guys!

Don't forget to send me some questions!

Cailin <3