Sleeping Under The Moonlight ( Tommyinnt x Reader)

Chapter 20

Tw// self hate and mentions of Ed and Body Dismorfia ,

I'm tried and haven't proof read this yet I'll do it. Tomorrow :)

I woke up on the couch,  I must have only slept for like and hour. I was on  the couch with a blanket draped over me. I couldn't help but feel bad. So I decided to leave.

Quietly I left the house and walked back home. It's weird calling it home. I walked through the gates and to the front door. A slight creek was the only sound to be heard as the door opened then shut. 

To my surprise the living room lights was on. So I slowly made my way in that direction.  I turn the corner to see ranboo sitting on the couch alone.

Crying? 

I walked over and sat down next to him. 

"What's wrong" I asked softly.  He just leaned over and cried onto my shoulder. I gently rubbed his back trying to help him calm down. 

"I'm sorry, you shouldn't be worrying about me, you should be worrying about yourself" he let out a small sniffles and wiped his tears.

" your my best friend of course I'm gonna worry about you, I'll worry about me later, I'm here if you wanna talk about it" he nodded and gave a short smile.

" I'll talk about it but not here" he sniffles. I have no idea what it was but I'm sure it's really important to him.

"Mhh 4 am driving sound like fun wanna go drive around" I asked and he nodded. I grabbed my car keys and walked out to my jeep. Ranboo followed not far behind. 

As soon as he hoped in I stared the car and started to drive to a mountain area with a great view over the sea. It was my safe place and hopefully it could be his too.  

" wow this spot it pretty I'm just gonna assume you come here to think. " he started off into the ocean.

"Yeah I figured you might need a safe spot to think so I decided to share mine" I laid back and look out towards the moon. It  lit up the sky allowing the stars around it to shine just as bright. They worked with each other. It was a beautiful thing g to see.

" you ever just hate how you look" ranboo asked. " yeah" I let out a short sigh. 

" it hurts when  I look in the mirror and I hate it. I hate it so much but no matter what I try to do it won't go away. The more and the more I look at my self, it make me hate my reflection even more"  he was trying not to cry. His wounds were not on the out side but on the inside.

" I had to start to cover mine or I would have never gotten out of my ED. Well I still struggle but it's better than what it was" I frowned relating to him.  " I should probably start to cover mine" his voice was quite the sad tone was still evident.

  " can I ask you another question "  he looked over at me with a smile. " yeah, what is it"   his face softened but looked anxious.

"Would you hate me if my sexuality was unable or gay" I looked over at him and gave a soft smile.

" no I could never hate you. I'm bisexual if that makes you feel any better I just don't  mention it often " he nodded and looked relived. 

"I feel like I should tell all of our friends but I'm to nervous to" he laid back down on the grass.

"Take your time. You don't have to rush, they can wait. " he let out a soft laugh. 

It then went quite again.

" please don't ever leave again. " he looked over at me for a second then back at the stars.

I didn't have a response. I didn't want to leave but I can't make a promise that's impossible to keep. I'm gonna die eventually.

Whether it's a year from now or 60 it's Inevitable. I can only promise I wouldn't be the only one to do it.

"I promise I'll try and stick around for as long as the universe lets me." We both smiled and looked at each other. Nothing could change how strong our Friendship was.

With that we decided to go home and watch a movie in the theater room. We laid down on the big couch. He wanted to watch Gravity Falls. I mean nothing to complain about. With that we both fell asleep for the night.