Why doesn't anyone love me?

Chapter 59

"Manik thank you" she said all of a sudden

"Thank you for what baby"

"For being here and coming at the right time, I" she stopped and I saw her reliving it as her eyes were closed

"Jaan its over it will never happen again, you know that right" I said caressing her hair and she nodded in my chest

"I am okay, I think it was just those initial hours that were killing me, I just felt like I was going to die, I was yelling but he didn't let go. I tried to tell him I don't love him but he said he wants me and that it was my fault" she said rubbing her nose on my chest

"Its not your fault baby, he is an asshole, he never even deserved your friendship but you are okay now, you are home with me and I'm making you your favourite. Everything will fall back into place okay Jaan" I said and she nodded kissing my chest

"I love you" I whispered not he top of her head

"I love you more" she said pulling her head out of my chest

"Now go make me food" she said in a baby voice making me laugh

"Yes ma'am" I said pecking her lips and turning around to make her food

It took me longer to make the food because I kept getting distracted with nanidni's kisses and right now she was blabbering about how much she loves the roses I got her a few days ago because apparently they were blue and she loves blur roses

"You have a cute ass" I heard her making me turn around wit the plates in my hands

"Quit checking me out, and here we go, dinner is severed" I said putting the plates down

"We eat upstairs please, I wanna watch Netflix and then I wanna cuddle" she said and I nodded

"Let me clean this up then we can go"

"No Manik, you cooked so I clean it up, im okay dont think too much okay, it was just a bad few hours but im so much better so let me clean and anyways I dont want everything misplaced" she grinned at the last sentence

"Hey I dont misplace thing"

"Yes you do"

"Ahh fine ill help okay" she nodded and we both cleaned the kitchen and I gotta say this no matter how hard I try I can never be a perfectionist like Nandini

We headed upstairs to our room, as Nandini said she put on some random Netflix show and was so lost in it that I had to start feeding her like always, We brushed together, washed the dishes together and now we were cuddling, the tv was still on but Nandini's attention wasn't on the tv anymore

She was playing with my chain and would giggle every few seconds and I knew she was thinking about something that happened between us but I couldn't pin point it

"Nandini what are you thinking"

"Umm about us"

"What about us"

"The first time when we made love" ahh this is why she is giggling

"Hmm what about it"

"Do you remember when your chain fell on my nose and you had this horrified look hehe and then you started giggling because I was pouting at the chain" she giggled again

I remember that night like it happened yesterday, it was a beautiful night might I say even one of the best nights ever.

"I remember that baby, it was"

"A beautiful night" she finished my sentence

"Its sure was, I need you to sleep darling its really late" I said caressing her hair and she pouted

"No please I want you"

"Jaan I think we should wait a while please, just a while I dont want to do anything that will remind you things that occurred"

"It will only remind me of us, of you and of your love, i really need you, I promise ill stop you if even once I think of the incidence" she said sitting on my stomach

"Are you sure babe"

"As sure as I am of having a little baby girl with you" she said grinning making me smile

I flipped her over and a long night of moans filled out room, maybe she was right maybe this is what she needed becasue not even for a single sec her mind went back to that incident

She had her head on my chest and was doodling on my chest, when suddenly she giggled

"What's up jaan"

"I cannot believe I fell for you Manik"

"Excuse me, that doesn't sound like a good thing"

"Haha it is a good thing"

"How so baby"

'You were such a shy baby, aww I still remember the frown on your forehead when rose pushed your things. I never thought id be lying in bed naked after making love with that manik"

"Well I guess I came with a lot of secrets" I teased and she nodded

"Not just secrets but other things, I genuinely thought you'd be my best friend and that's about it but the fact that I married my best friend was beyond anything" I could feel her smiling

"Nandini my life before you wasn't ideal, I always woke up and slept with the same question. Why doesnt anyone love me? That question is what I lived by for 14 years, ever since dad passed away no one loved me but the reason was unknown to me. I wasn't sure why no-one loved me, I tried to change myself, everything people told me to change I did yet no one loved me until you"

"Until me" she said and I nodded

"You loved me without knowing me, the first time when you caressed my hair to make me fall a sleep knew it wasn't just because you were my friend, it was becasue you loved me more than a friend would. You never judged me for anything, not even sleeping with monster. You let me be me and loved me for who I am not for who you think you could turn me to'

She looked up at me and kissed my lips, pulling back she caressed my cheeks with her thumb, her eyes showed nothing but love, love for me, love for us as a whole.

"I have always loved you and I always will no matter what, you do not need to change yourself ever, I love you jus the way you are manik" she kissed my nose and rubbed her nose against mine giving an Eskimo kiss

"Why doesnt anyone love me you asked right" I nodded

"Its becasue people always wanna suppress someone they feel is better than them, so they point out mistakes in hopes to lower your self confidence. Your dad loved you so much didnt he" she asked and I nodded

"He would run around with me, feeding me playing with me, we also used to go on walks just everything" I remember the times with my dad

"Wherever he is, he is looking down and seeing his little manik happy would make him happy so smile a little more, laugh a little harder the next time thinking of him" she is so perfect

"Thank you for coming in my life jaan, I love you so freaking much and I always will"

"Till our hearts beat" she nodded

"Till our hearts beat" I said placing my lips on her

That is out story, mine and hers. Hers and mine, we are forever, arguments come and go but we are constant. Never in a millions years would I have found someone as perfect as her but I have and im so freaking glad I did. Her and I, Nandini and manik are forever till the sun shine and the stars glow.