Why doesn't anyone love me?

Chapter 51

Manik's pov

She closed the lights and my heart sank, my head was already pounding but my heart was beating like crazy

"Ill take the meds please dont go to sleep angry" I said hoping she will turn towards me

"Im not angry manik"

"Yes you are I know you are, I made a mistake I always make mistakes par tum toh bohot achi ho na toh please ek bar phir maf kar do, tum janti ho mara tumharai bina kuch ni ho sakta please maf kar do, I will listen to everything you say please, the last few hours felt like hell, my head has been banging but I know I kept my stupid ego before us and I am sorry please Nandini. No one loves me like you do nandini, I love when you care for me, I need it, I need you please dont be angry at me please I beg you please dont. I feel lost without you. The last few hours felt slow painfully slow without you please nandini one last time" I cried like I have never before

"Shh why are you crying" she immediately got up pulling me in a hug but gasped

"Manik you are so warm, sit here ill be right back" she said running out and I closed my eyes feeling ashamed of myself, I keep letting her down

"Here take this" she handed me a pill and some water

I quickly gulped the pill down and took my t shirt off as nandini covered me with blankets, she came back with a bowl in her hand and cloth

"Please talk to me" I said trying not to cry becasue it felt like my head was gonna explode

"I dont want a single tear falling from your eyes, I am not mad at you" she said but I knew she was lying how can she not be mad at me after the stupid shit I did

"Manik im not angry with you, im upset at your carelessness towards your health, you can argue and fight with me all you want I won't get upset but when it comes to your health I cannot put that behind me. It wasn't such a hard task to just take the pill and wear the jacket. It didn't prove anything Manik, it just made your health worse" she explained caressing my cheeks

"Im sorry" I mumbled

"Come on lay down, ill put these cold cloth on your head it will get rid of the fever" she said and without arguing I laid down in my lap

She started doing whatever she was doing and trust me it helped so much, not even a minute in and I could feel myself relaxing, it is so true that no matter what no one is this world can take care of me like she does

"Nandini"

"I know you are sorry, guilt is clearly visibile on your face and I get it baby but it better not happen again, because if you do I'm not forgiving you this quick"

I nodded in agreement becasue I didnt deserve to be forgiven this easy anyways but she forgave me so I am really happy about that

"I wont do it again, his words just got to me, I felt like maybe I am restricting you which I don't want at all"

"I understand that, but talk to me I promise if you talk to me and let me know what is bothering you we can figure it out"

"Thank you for sticking with me always and forgiving me" I said and she kissed my hair

"Now what's going on, why are you taking his words to heart" she asked

"I dont know why I took them to heart, he is obviously trying to mess things around, and I was foolish to let him have his way" I said holding her hand

"Its okay we wont let him right" she said and I nodded

"Thank you babe, your hands have magic" I said kissing her hands

"Ill grab some food for you okay, I know you didnt eat well" she said and I opened my eyes

"How do you know" I asked

"Becasue im nandini, and just becasue you were chewing stuff doesn't mean you ate a lot, you were nibbling on the smallest piece of garlic toast" she is really something

"I felt bad for being so rude and fucked up to you and I also cannot eat without you tum janti toh ho" I said and she nodded

"I know bacha chalo, ill grab you food, till then close your eyes okay and let the cloth be on your head" she said kissing my head and I nodded

I moved a little to let her get up, she got up, I opened my eyes and saw her give me the cutest smile ever, she leaned down and nudged my nose with hers, I pouted making her giggle, she pecked my lips and went outside

I closed my eyes like she asked to me before she left, I smiled touching my lips, she makes my heart skip a beat, I hated seeing her sad but I was so drowned in my fucking ego that I hurt her once again

"Up up big boy" I heard her

I got up and saw my favourite food, Italian and Chinese, and she got me a red velvet chocolate lava cake

"Umm this looks good like really yumm thank you Jaan" I whispered but my focus was on the food

"I never knew this day would come" she said sighing and I looked at her

"What day" I asked

"The day my husband looks at food with such love" she said dramatically and I laughed

"Shush and open up" she said and she fed me,

"I love you" I whispered

"I love you more" she said pecking my nose

"Tumnai sach mai meko maf kar dia" I asked as she fed me the last bite

"Dil sai maf kar dia" she said and I smiled

"Chalo go brush silly"

"No thanks I dont feel like it" I said

"Come on" she said yanking my arm

She is more stubborn than I am, she took me to brush, I was leaning on her most of the time, which she didnt mind at all for some reason. She wiped my face and took the cold water and cloth with the dishes away.

She came back in the room and locked out door, she took her over shirt off leaving her in a tank top, im sure she saw my eyes becasue she blushed

"You aren't getting that mr malhotra" she said

"Shit" I mummbled and she laughed hearing me

"Close your eyes" she said and I put my head on her chest, her hairs massaged my hair

"It'll be okay, dont think too much you and the pill will work okay" she said and I nodded

"Goodnight babe"

"Goodnight handsome" she whispered and pecked my head

I played with her fingers for a while, she was humming the song we first performed first, hasi, it is my favourite song, she knows it calms me down, she knows that, I have told her this but she just knows

She knows me inside out, her lap, and her chest are my heaven to fall a sleep, her hands have this touch this magic that never disappoints me. She is an angel I love her so fucking much, I will never hurt her again never ever. I fell a sleep hearing Nandini's humming