The Unseen Trial [Ace Lucifer's Series Three] ON GOING

Epilogue 2/2

Candace's Point of View

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Pa'no bang mababawi

Lahat ng mga nasabi? Hmm

'Di naman inakalang

Ika'y darating lang bigla

Ng walang babala

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Family.

Kids loves to look around whenever, and wherever they are. Unlike adults who chose ignore their surroundings, and focuses on the important ones they considered to be worthy. Kids doesn't have a choice... at the early stage of life, they don't get a chance of ignore, or to choose which to focus on. Lahat ng bagay, napapansin. Lahat ng bagay, nakakapagtakha, kung paano, bakit, kailan, saan, sino... at ano.

Kids are always aware of the surroundings. Even they're sleeping or even dreaming. Ang mga bagay na hindi napapansin ng mga matatanda, o hindi naiisip ng mga matatanda, ay napapansin, o nakikita ng mga bata. It's ironic, isn't it? Dapat ang bata ang hindi pumapansin sa paligid dahil sa murang edad, habang ang matatanda dapat ang aware sa paligid dahil mas hinog na ang isip.

I wonder why... it's the other way around. Kasi, sana ay ganoon na lang. Sana, hindi ko napapansin ang paligid noong bata pa ako. Sana hindi ako madalas magtakha. I hoped that I never liked discovering things, asking questions, wondering...searching...looking for something that is constantly absent, and randomly seen.

They said that kids are easy to forget things, especially when they grew up, but why did I grow up as if everything was played on my mind, clearly. Ang sabi, ang matatanda ang mahirap lumimot dahil aware na sa paligid, then why...does my parents seem to forget about me?

Why does that seem that I'm the only one who's left in this family who remembered everything from the beginning, as if, at this very young age, I seem to know every detail, wondering why... confused why I was left alone when all I know... when all I remember since the very beginning is I have a family who promised me a fairy tale life?

Family.

Why I was left alone, endlessly waiting, hoping, and praying that one day... I will be able to have them? I will able to have the family that I've always been promised to have, and the memories of me as a kid will be forgotten, but the feelings within those memories will retain...and when my parents are finally at age to tell me where I will remember, they will tell that story to me... to cherish again... because they are adult who are meant to remember things that kids often forget?

Sana ay ganoon nga... o kung hindi man, sana ay mas nakakalimot ang isang bata... para hindi ako... mag-isa...at ganito.

"Bailey! Ano ba naman! Linggo ngayon! Candace is waiting for you! For us, on the family day! Hindi na nga natin naihahatid-sundo dahil busy ka kamo sa trabaho, at ngayong linggo, ano?! You will neglect your own child! Hindi na bale na ako, pero ang anak mo?!"

I can hear my mom. Akala nila ay tulog pa ako. At 6 in the morning, I'm already awake. Kahit sabado o linggo dahil siguro ay nasanay na akong gumigising. They aren't aware of that because they're busy with their own work. Hindi naman problema sa akin, and the reason I'm waking up at this early during weekends is I am expectant of another family bonding.

But then, these past few weeks... are not like that anymore. Ang pangako nila sa akin na susunduin ako, at tatambay sa office after class ay paminsan-minsan na lang. Ang pangakong family day sa linggo ay ganito pa. With my weary eyes, fuzzy hair, and pajamas, I ran down the stairs because I know it's already Sunday, my parents are with me today... expectantly... but my feet stopped on its own tracks as I heard my mom shouting to my dad.