When LOVE is not Enough

Chapter 19 - Angel

It was Friday and I was enjoying happy hour with my girls when Axel called. "Angel, where are you?", he asked in a serious tone making me feel confused.

I didn't remember having anything with him. "Hello to you too", I teased alcohol making me feel a bit bolder than usual. He released a breath.

"You didn't come to the gym today. We waited for you", he said calmly. Oh, that... "I'm sorry, I didn't tell you but I'm having a girl's night with Iris and Lily", I explained. He was silent for a bit then replied, "Be careful ok?". "I am Axel. It's just Iris and Lily", I assured him.

It had been a while since we decided to make ourselves official and Axel has changed.

I don't know if I like his behaviour or not, he has just become more possessive and jealous and I don't know if I should say it's a good thing or bad. All I know is he has changed.

"I know that I'm just saying. I'm the one that has most to lose so...", he trailed off as if I would understand his point but I didn't instead I felt anger starting to build in me. "Axel what does that mean?", I asked while going to a corner that had less music to hear him properly.

"Never mind, just tell me when you get home ok?", he said trying to play cool and obviously noticing my changed tone. "Actually I do Axel, please tell me what you meant by that", I said sarcastically something that he didn't seem to pick up on.

"Look I get that I'm the one with the daughter and you just got into this parenting thing so disappearing on us without saying anything just to go have a girls' night isn't a very motherly behaviour that's all.

It's not like I don't want to go have fun with the guys, I do but this is my daughter so I can't just pretend I'm single and just ditch her and go have fun whenever I feel like it.

Real parents prioritise their children and not booze or loud music... Fuck! That didn't come out right. A-", I hang up and switched off my phone. I took a deep breath and returned to our table.

"Whatever Vudu you gave to this guy I want it. I think Anthony needs to be this hands-on with me. All the man cares about is his gym. Not that I complain about the outcome, the stamina is incredible", Iris said when I told her to not pick up Axel's call.

Anthony worships her, and the guy could move mountains for her but she still had issues and that's what was making us laugh, because, despite all the things she has to complain about him, she never leaves him.

They have been together for years.

"Angel I'm sorry, I have to pick up", Iris said while walking away obviously going to answer the one call I told her not to answer. When I turned to Lily she was looking at me with a knowing smile.

"You love him that much huh?", she asked sipping her vodka. "I do... he makes me feel happy and loved and safe, all in one but he always says things without thinking and it's so annoying", I said making her smile again.

I know Axel has insecurity issues and that it will take time to undo whatever Rachel did but sometimes I just feel like giving up and then I think about Alice. I've grown fond of her and I love her.

Every time I go down that road, I just think of her and follow my gut that keeps on telling me Axel is not Daren. He is worth my attention and time and I do not want to give up on us".

"Hey! Don't be too hard on him, if I were him dating someone like you, I would have put a bodyguard on your ass. I mean look at you. You've been glowing and just happy all the time, I mean think about it", she said gesturing to my body.

I haven't lost any weight may be a tiny bit but I've been getting attention from the opposite gender more than before, even Daren's father complimented me once and it was weird but I accepted it.

"Oh god! You two will make me reach my fifties so tired, I swear", Iris said sitting on her chair releasing a breath. Lily turned to her excitement written all over her face.

"He apologises and said that he appreciates you as a mother, he's sorry that he panicked and told you what he did, he didn't mean it. As your relationship therapist. I forgive him and I think you should too.

And please switch on your phone because if he calls again I will not have it in me to listen to anyone for hours", she finished making us laugh, she was our therapist.

Axel was close to Iris nowadays so there was no surprise there. I switched on my phone with no commitment to answering any calls.

Zeus🔥- Angel I'm sorry. I'm so stupid, I'm sorry.

Zeus🔥 - Look, you are an amazing mother and parent I'm just jealous.

Zeus🔥 - Please switch on the phone. I'm sorry, I can't live without you, please.

Zeus🔥 - Angel, I'm calling Iris, I just need to know you're ok.

Zeus🔥 - Angel I love you so much. Please forgive me.

I read through the texts then put the phone down and told the girls to light it up. Lily ordered more drinks for us and we let the music take over. I told Iris I was going to sleep at her place she didn't mind. She was living with Anthony and their house was huge so she could definitely accommodate me in one of their guests' rooms.

I just needed to take a step back and look at this whole thing with Axel again. Everything was happening so fast and I love our connection as much as I love the bond between me and his daughter but I wanted to take time off and just think about us.

I was sure that Axel was going to be at my front door first thing in the morning. He's an expressive person so he would want us to talk about it and I would give in without a second thought but I need to know if this is still what I want because men don't change and if he is possessive now, he will always be so yeah.