When LOVE is not Enough

Chapter 36 - Axel

When we got home the first thing I did was call Angel but she didn't pick up. I knew she was having a girls' night and probably dumped her phone miles away but I just needed to hear her voice so bad and I had no idea why.

"Dad are you and Angel ok? Why did she come to sleep in my room?", Alice asked standing right in front of me. "We're fine. I just said something stupid... again", I said feeling disappointed in myself. She went to her room looking unhappy.

I took a shower and sat on the bed. I checked my phone and there was no text or missed call. I'm having this weird feeling that I'm losing her and it's making me mad.

I've known Travis to be a competitive person and he never gives up when he decides that he wants something so there was no way Titan was different. If he wants her, he will do everything to get her and with the crapy comments I've been making I will lose my girl.

"Dad? Can I sleep here tonight?", Alice asked looking stressed. "Of course, come here", I said lifting the sheets. She got on the bed and slept on the side to see me.

"Dad, I think you need to see a therapist", she said with a serious face. "What?", I asked hoping that I heard wrong. "Hear me out, please... I was reading online and I saw that people who have had unpleasant previous relationships or experienced neglect and mistreatment from their Ex tend to have chronic insecurity issues.

I feel like what happened between you and Mum is what triggers you, and I think that you should see a therapist for that. I could listen but with the PG-13 and all I don't think it's something we can do", she said with a smile making me chuckle.

"I'm serious Dad", she said while looking me in the eyes and I knew she meant it. "I know", I said with a weak smile.

"I know this is hard but I love you so much and I know that once you do this, everything will be ok. Good night", she said then kissed my forehead then she turned her back to me and switched off her light. I did the same.

"Good morning Nara, Can you come to my office real quick?", I asked the moment I arrived which startled her. I never did that but then again I never thought my daughter would confront me and say I'm insecure either.

"Yes Sir? Is everything ok?", she asked nervously. "Of course. I just need your help. I need you to find me a therapist that deals with mental anxiety or insecurity, one that can be discreet and less famous because I want to be doing my sessions here during the last working hour. Is that possible?", I said while settling down on my table, it was awkward so I didn't want her to study me.

"Of course Sir, so when do you want to start?", she asked while noting down in her diary. "Immediately please", i said and she nod and left.

I have been thinking of calling Angel but decided against it. She needed a break from me. I needed to fix myself too for both of us.

"Hey, man! Wanna go have lunch with me?", Blake asked barging into my office as usual. "Will there ever come a time when you will knock on that door like the corporate person that you are", I asked with a smile. "Why would I wanna be like everyone else? Are we going or not?", he asked with a raised brow. I released a breath then closed my laptop.

"So I think I'm falling for Lily", Blake said making me swallow a piece of meat without chewing, I reached for a glass of water to help me clear my throat. "What did you just say?", I asked making him smile nervously. "Lily and I have been hanging out and one thing led to another and yeah...", he said in a rush like he was uncomfortable. It was a good look on him.

"That's cool man. I'm happy for you", I said honestly because I never thought Blake would ever settle down. "Do you think Angel will mind?", he asked looking deep in thought. "No way, she likes both of you so there's no such thing as hatred in her books", I said recalling the fact that I screwed up again. 

"How was Christmas with her family? Did you win them over?", he asked with excitement. "Yeah, they're really good people. Alice seemed to be the star of the whole trip they didn't have time for me", I said making him chuckle.

"You're in so deep man, I see you and Angel getting hitched in no time", I swear if he said that before the trip I would have felt proud but after the talk I had with Alice, I'm not so sure.

"X? What did you do man?", he asked with furrowed brows. "Well, turns out Travis is married to Angel's old friend and they were invited for Christmas. They came with that twin brother of his and the way he was looking at Angel made me lose it", I explained.

"No shit! Is he stalking you?", he asked looking pissed. Finally, someone that felt the same way as I did. "Not really, he's working on a project with Angel's Dad. Something in construction", "Oh, but still man, I don't think Angel will ever go for that Titan guy. She's that into you", he assured me and I wish he had told me that before I accused my girl. I chuckled.

"I'm serious X, you got nothing to worry about", "I know, I just wished you told me that before I accused her of choosing Titan over me making her leave our room in the middle of the night and go sleep with Alice", "What? Shit, but you made up right? You usually do", he said sounding sure of himself.

I can't believe it was a known trend. It made me realise something. I do have insecurity issues. "Yeah... yeah we did. I have to get back to work man. I have a meeting in thirty minutes", I said looking at my wristwatch as we stood up while he paid.

When I got to the office I found my calendar booked in the last hour, I knew Nara got the therapist, she was that good. I text a 'thanks' in her WhatsApp and got a thumbs up.

I opened Instagram and went to Angel's page and saw her posts from last night. She looked happy and carefree with Iris and Lily, it made me smile and somehow feel determined to fix my insecurity problem. She was worth it and I was not going to let Titan take my girl no matter what.