how many times Ive re written this page.
all with hope that im able to say,
exactly how you make me feel.
when I think of you, normal words arent enough.
even the most beautiful words in the English language can never quite capture that.. feeling.
like fireworks or soda pop,
the feeling of euphoria stained in your memory. the nostalgic feeling kind of like "home", that feeling you cant quite put into words.
the passion they write books about.
the thrill of experiencing the sunset one more time when you thought you never would again? that feeling?
..the ones they write poems about ..
its that feeling thats worth writting about. the ones that you never forget.
so maybe its just pretty words on a page but the next time you exhale the smoke ill still see the way your face softens and your eyes light up when the taste hits you. the way you care so much for your dog. the way your skin feels touching mine..
i spend so long memorized that feeling, incase it was the last time.
I never know when ill see you again. or if itd be the last time. so i remember.
every tattoo and every tell. every subtle change. and every habit. just incase this is the last time. ill remember.
i want to feel like I wont have to wonder if this is the last time... i want to wonder, when is the next time. that FEELING... of stability.
so when u go about your day thinking nothing more, im thinking of every beautiful way I could tell you I love you, but still fall short of really describing that nostalgic "Feels Like Home" feeling that you give me
~@ng3! 7/2/22
