Broken Aphrodite

Chapter 35

I fix my skirt and hair , clean my face from the lipstick mess , because today is the day that I decided to wear a red lipstick . I stare at my shirt ..it's ripped , how am I supposed to go out like this ? . my eyes tear up as I recall all his words "I don't even know you" he said earlier ..he's right , I don't even know me .

Month and half ago I was criticizing him for using his charm to succeed and now i'm doing the very same thing , I didn't use my charm entirely though , I played with numbers and business ..all I did was talk in a sexy way , why am I feeling like shit ? he did it again , made me feel so cheap then leaves ,a single tear escape but I quickly wipe it and grab my phone to call Lisa "Lisa , I spilled some coffee on my shirt , please can you bring me something to wear ? " .

"Yeah for sure " she says firmly than hang up , good thing I keep back up clothes. Lisa is a whole other story , she's mad as hell with me because of the way i treated her when all she did was worrying about me ..just wait until she knows what I did , I wouldn't be surprised if she never talks to me again . I wait for her until she brings the shirt and I wear it quickly , she picks the shirt from the floor "it's ripped" she says eyeing me warily "um ..the coffee was too hot so I just ripped it open " I say laughing and she smiles a little , images of fifteen minutes run through my mind , it was simply amazing .

"Lisa I'm really sorry , I was angry and I didn't know what I'm saying ..you know I love you " I say and she sighs .

"It's alright ," she walks over to me and leans on the table just like I did earlier .

"what happened when Lucas was here ? I heard yelling and swearing but then you were very quiet and he came out pretty angry " she says and I sit on my office "he's an asshole again ..we yelled a bit at each other but when I spilled the coffee on my shirt he stopped yelling and got out " boy I can lie , Come on how can I tell her about what just happened ? .

"So you guys broke up ?" she asks and I quickly shake my hear "no , I still love him ..it's just ..with that deal going away ..I'm blaming him and he's blaming me and these stuff " I wave my hand in the air, she nods .

"So how did it go with the Grey's ?" she asks and I swallow hard .

"I ..I got the deal " I say quickly , whatever ..she'll give me shit anyway .

"How did you get it exactly ..I myself brought you the contract ..and it was signed by the two companies already " she says quickly trying to get explanation. My head is dizzy from the encounter I had with Lucas .

"it wasn't legalized ..so I took it " I answer tiredly looking away from her .

"You stole it ?" she gapes at me and I shake my head .

"Stop with the stealing shit ! he took it first ! why didn't you say he stole it ?" I ask and she is quick to answer

"Because there was no contract between you and the Greys when Jack took it ..but now you ripped a contract that was already made ..you destroyed a huge deal for the Comquer in a nonlegal way for your own good ! this is a scam for god's sake !" she is now standing and folding her arms over her chest .

"Lisa this is my deal and Jack took it on purpose to humiliate me and I won't let that happen " I say and she looks at me with sadness in her eyes .

"whatever you want Miss Leonard " she says getting out of the office , oh fuck this . I gather my things and go to my house ..I need to stay alone after all of this shit ..I was wrong but it's too late to back away ..I started a game that I am going to continue no matter what

I still haven't talked to my father but I'm not going to today ..I don't think I'll ever do because his health is already very bad and anger can make it worse , I just don't know what to do anymore .