Break in | Bangchan Fanfic

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I AM SORRY I DIDN'T WANT TO WRITE THIS, I REALLY AM😭😭😭😭😭 FORGIVE ME, I KNOW I AM BAD------ forgive me😭😭 you guys are going to hate me for this chapter

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Bangchan sat down beside you, on the dinner table with both of your families. The atmosphere had been really lively, and filled with laughter until, you came around.

Everyone had an awkward smile on their face, whilst staring at you. Most probably the last meeting with you was still stuck in their mind. Bangchan who was quick to notice this, laughed to ease the tension, "Thank you for inviting us to the dinner, Uncle." His shoulder were tense, but he tried to gather the attention away from you so you wouldn't feel uncomfortable. Your father gave him a smile, and shook his head, "You don't have to be thankful, Bangchan-ah.(💀💀💀) This is your home too." Bangchan's smile became awkward, but he still nodded.

It was Lucas who laughed breaking the silence, "You guys should stop with the awkward attitude Mom, Dad, Noona is feeling uncomfortable." Jessica was quick to glare at Lucas who gave her a sheepish smile, but the Bang family was careful not to make you uncomfortable after that. The dinner continued with small talks. And it was at one point Bangchan couldn't keep quiet and asked gathering attention, "I didn't know you painted, Y/n-shi?" Hearing his words your parents, You and your siblings stiffened. Your face had gone blank, and your hand clenched around the chopsticks.

"Appa! Please, n-no, Don't do this! I love painting"

It was Ara who gained back her expression first, and spoke up smiling, "Yeah, Unnie used to paint alot, years ago." Jessica, who just like her family didn't understand that the atmosphere had gotten darker, questioned, "Used to? She stopped painting?" She had a curious smile on her face. You felt suffocated, hearing them dig deeper in your shitty life.

It was your father who nonchalantly answer the questions, disrespecting your artworks, "Why would she continue wasting her time?" He scoffed, "She would simply waste money on stupid paints and brushes!" He glanced at you sneering, "How useless! I am glad she stopped painting."  You hung your head low, hiding the anger in your eyes, your chopsticks long back in the bowl, and your hands fisted tightly on your laps. How dare he?!

Suddenly a big hand wrapped around your small fist, in a comforting form, and you stiffened. You could feel his eyes on you, feel the concern he felt. You reminded yourself, you weren't alone with just your family. No matter how much you hated them, they were still your family. Disrespecting them infront of people and insulting their reputation was never something that you could bring yourself to do. You still cared.

You unfisted your hands, looking back at up at Bangchan with a blank face. His face was worried, you nodded whispering, "it's nothing." It was your brother, that had spoken nonchalantly, "She scored just passing during her 8th grade. That night she burned down all her paintings, she hasn't painted since then." His words held a depressed tone, and he sighed with a lamenting expression. He smiled sadly, looking at you, "Noona used to paint, the best paintings....," his tone made your breath lodge in your throat.

Jaehyun schook his head, commenting, "You would have loved seeing her paintings, auntie." The Bang family was astonished hearing your brother's comment. Bangchan was staring at you with a look you couldn't decipher, Whilst his mother stared at you with soft eyes, speaking up just above a whisper, "So you......,just left your passion behind for your, studies?"

A bitter smile lifted up your lips, and you glanced at you father with a subtle  mocking look, and then looked at Jessica, "My passions and hobbies, they interfered with other's....," You laughed out humourlessly, joking, "Can't disappoint people around me, Can I?" The Bang family, was speechless as how matter of factly you spoke about giving up your dreams, because your parents wanted you to be a doctor. They could never imagine making Bangchan give up on his dreams and passions for themselves.