Break in | Bangchan Fanfic

19.

Bangchan stared at you worried. His voice eyes on your drunken form, as he spoke up concerned, "Y/n, stop now. This, drinking so much....I am not sure if this is good for you." You squinted your eyes at him, before eyeing the bottles on the table. Your eyes bloodshot, clearly super drunk.

You shook your head at him, before slurring out, "I clearly have a good alcohol tolerance!" You then giggled, "I swear on human organs that if I could, I would like to be a stone in my life!" Bangchan eyed you, stupefied at your dumb remark. Why danger human organs on your drunk state?

He shook his head, glancing at about 23 bottles on the table, before standing up, "I need to get you home, right now." Geez, you said you weren't alcholic, what on the earth was this?

You yelled, "You peasant! Dance for the queen!" Bangchan was baffled for a while as he stared at you. Your right eye twitched as you glared at him, you sneered. "A queen can't marry a simple peasant boy!" You raised your finger, almost poking his eyes, before jabbing it in his chest, you said haughtily, "I can't accept your baby love!"

Bang Chan realising you were probably too gone due to the alcohol, had his eyes wide seeing your comical state. What the fuck did you have in that brain of yours.

You scowled at him, checking him out openly, "But why do you look so ravishing, eh?" Bangchan, who was astonished at your boldness could only let out a stutter, "h-huh?" You glared at him, growling, "Why. Are. You. So  Hot?" You jabbed his chest with each words, and Bangchan was flushed, quickly backing away. He shook his head muttering, "Yeah, I need to get her back home as soon as possible." You bit off, "I hate you!"

He looked at you, and right away your expression had changed. Your eyes held tears, and he was appalled at your sad face. Your words stinging his heart. Your eyes were glaring at him through the tears, but you looked so vulnerable.

His eyes softened, and he questioned in a voice that held all the softness of the world, "Why, Y/nnie? Why do you....,hate me?" Even saying those words were bitter to his tounge. You glared at him, in an agonised way.

"You're making me attached! I-I can't afford the things you are making me do..," your voice cracked in the middle of the statement, making Bangchan drown in melancholy of your words. It truly made him worried sick, hearing your words.

His voice was soft, when he spoke up holding you by shoulder, gazing in your pained eyes, "why can't you? Is..., is it something I did? Something, someone else did?" His voice held somber seriousness, but you just shook your head. Your face holding a tormented expression, and a tear slid down your cheeks.

Your words were barely above a whisper, but the words you said, felt as if his world came crashing down, "We...., We can't be together, Bangchan-shi...,"

Bangchan was frozen at your agonised words, as he stared fixedly at your anguish. It was as if you were slowly killing yourself, mentally over and over, about whatever that you were hiding. The tears that fell down your broken eyes, in a manner that felt as if a sword slashing his guts. The way you silently gasped for breath, as if to stop even your cries from escaping yourself in your drunk state. It felt as if it was engraved in you, that you didn't want to show your feelings to anyone. It was unacceptable to him.

It was intolerable to Bangchan that you grieve over something all alone, and he couldn't do anything to help you out. It simply crushed him. His arms wrapped around you, as he brought you in a firm embrace, his voice was stern, but shaky and daunted as he spoke up. "Don't you dare say that, Y/n. There is no reason for us to not be together. You can trust me."

It was Bangchan's first time seeing your cry, but he couldn't bear it even for a second. Your voice which was filled with pain, that you tried to hide even in a unconscious state cut through his brain, scarring his memories. He couldn't get himself to just ignore your words, it didn't feel like some drunk mood swings. They felt real. It felt as if he was seeing something, you wouldn't have ever wanted him to see. Your body shook in his embrace, but your voice was evenly strong when spoke up, "We, we can't. N-not more than one year...,"

Bangchan froze at your voice. One year? What the fuck did you mean? He quickly grabbed your shoulder, his heart clenching at your hurtful expression as he felt  apprehension gripped his heart in it's claws. "What do you mean? Why?" You shook your head, too lost in your own cries, you glared at him angrily as you spoke, "O-only 40% su-survive....,"

He tensed up, were you sick? His eyes stoned up, he spoke up commandingly, as he grabbed your shoulder, "Tell me. Clearly." You cried, trying to break free from his grip, your expression holding storm.

"You Idiot, go away! Leave, can't you see you will get hurt at the end?!" Your words drove Bangchan to the edge of sanity. You were getting him worried.

He gritted his teeth, feeling hurt "No, I am not." His voice was streaky, filled with emotions and frustration, "I won't leave, so just please fucking tell me what is going on?!" His eyes filled with seriousness, but you stubbornly shook your head, holding in your sobs, "Just leave me alone! I don't want this! Y-you can't be around me, this isn't right!" You sobbed, your voice making it harder for him to not scream and yell at you, shake you to bring you to your senses and tell him exactly what was happening.

He couldn't stand your cries. What were you doing to him? He knew, after tonight he wouldn't be able to see you as he had seen you earlier, his worry won't let him. You won't say a word, stubbornly just crying. It felt foreign for you, as you were confused why you were crying. Your voice in the back of your head, screaming at you to pull yourself together.

Your eyes stung, you didn't know why you were walking towards him, when you were supposed to go away from him. Your thoughts killing you, but you only inched closer to Bangchan, as if the one who put you through this suffering could take it all away too. It was as if he could take away your pain, but the more you relied on him, it hurt even more. Guilt speaking up volumes, as you felt yourself loosing control over yourself. "Y-you can't stay! G-go a-way!" You sobbed hitting him in your drunken state.

How could you be so selfish to bring him to hell with you? When all he did was try to give you comfort? You didn't want to live yourself.
You had accepted your fate, had accepted your death. Then why did he make you want to live?

You knew you won't ever be happy, you couldn't be. You had ruined too many things to continue forward without any guilt, every night you slept you hoped the next morning your eyes won't open. How could you dare to live? How could you dare to love?

Your nose stung, feeling sour. You suddenly felt all the energy draining from your body, breath shallowing. Your eyes widened realising what was happening, and you tried to hold yourself as your knees buckled up, making you almost fall.

Your whole weight crashed down on Bangchan, making his eyes widened. He caught you from falling as his heart dropping in trepidation. "Y-Y/n? Hey, Y/n?!" He bellowed, supporting you as your body went limp in his arms. He pulled up your face, seeing your eyes closed. His heart racing in his chest, suddenly stopped and the earth beneath his legs disappeared with the sight he saw.

A thin string of blood dripped down your nose,  with your eyes closed. Bangchan froze as dread filled him up. What the fuck was happening?!

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