Break in | Bangchan Fanfic

31.

Everyone huddled around the television, leaning on the other, sitting in laps and literally squeezing in on couch or sprawling on the floor. You could see all kinds of human starfish in straykids dorm.

You chuckled as they decided to get as comfortable as they could, Han and I.N giggling as they as they threw popcorns at eachother. They had decided that they wanted to Titanic again, because apparently you had never watched the movie. This came as a shock to even Leeknow and han who were bickering wether to watch fifty shades of grey series or to watch deadpool.

They decided you needed to stop living under a rock and finally watch it. Then without any further ado, arguments and obstacles Bangchan grabbed the remote and put it on play. You kept watching the movie seriously. 

You heard Hyunjin swearing and cursing like a sailor at rose's fiance, and then them ogling as the scene in which Jack drew rose. You rolled your eyes at thier perverted reactions. Geez, these boys acted like horny teens all the time. Now you knew where stays got these habits from.

There were loud sniffles and cries as it came to the scene where Jack was dying whilst you watched the movie. Hyunjin was still crying dramatically loud, and even Bangchan was holding a few tears. Leeknow was smiling like a kid who had just gotten a candy, which was super wierd since this was supposed to be a sad scene, but then you saw Han hugging him, and sobbing on his shoulder and felt like laughing. 

You looked at their dramatic asses and chuckled making all their heads snap up towards you. You shook your head relaxing back on the couch, with a slight smile as you watched Jack slowly sinking in the ocean.

I.N exclaimed, "Noona isn't even crying!" You dryly replied, "Because this is pure bullshit." You closed your eyes relaxing on the couch, damn the movie sure did bore you.

There were protests all around, "What?! No! This is tragic!"

"They loved eachother!"

"Oh my god, that was so cold, Y/n he died!"

"Its a tragic love story!"

"It's a sad ending."

You smiled calmly, looking at them and you shook your head pointing out. "There was plenty of space for Jack to be saved. They could have easily both floated."

H-han stuttered out, "B-but, then there was a chance that the door wood have sinked and Rose would have also died."

You smiled, "Rose could have gotten down in water, begged him to try it for her." Your face calmly stretched in a peaceful curve, as you mocked. "If I loved someone, I wouldn't let him die for something like this. I would have decided to drown with him, die, lets die together, or atleast if I could, then I would save him."

Your smile was still in place, "I wouldn't let my love die because of some stupid space. How could she?" You tilted your head, and cocked an eyebrow. "Did she think her life was more than Jack's? If so, how is it love? A love sacrificed for selfishness of our ownselves."

Their eyes stated at you, astonished and you chuckled. "He, if he loved her, he would have found a way to live with her. There was goddamn ship that sinked, you can't expect only one door to flow away?"

"So, this story is a bullshit. I could have felt bad for every single one on that ship, but Jack and Rose. Rose was a selfish bitch who let a guy who loved her, die. Jack was a guy, who couldn't look up past his love, and save himself and die."

You shook your head, "Its a shit I refuse to feel bad for." You closed your eyes, leaning against head rest and mumbled, "What I have witnessed is, Love isn't supposed to be cute and sweet. Love is supposed to be reckless, raw, destructable."

She traced the words from her heart. "Where I have seen some love is in those mothers who have given up their body parts for their kids that were dying. Where I have seen love is in the eyes of that man who gave up his sight so his wife could see."

Where your eyes opened, they were deep. "I have seen love in the eyes of those families that have cried outside the operation ward for their family."

Your smile now solemn, your eyes slid to Bangchan's, "Love, isn't what you cried for. Love is something that makes you die for the betterment of those whom you love."

You shook your head, and stood up dusting yourself. You laughed, "You guys look traumatized."

You spoke up with a soft smile, "I am a doctor guys, things such as these mean nothing to me."

"Love is nothing but a waste of time."

You excused yourself to the kitchen, to drink water when you felt someone follow you behind. You turned and found Bangchan standing there, looking in your eyes.

His eyes searching yours for something he didn't like. His lips were pressed in between his teeth, as if trying to make you say things, that were hidden deep in your heart.

His eyes staring at yours, with an alarming understanding, that made your breath hitch. His expression speaking such volumes, that threatened to drown out every single of your thoughts, and when his lips moved to speak up, his words soaked you in the rain of temptation to fall deeper. "If love is a waste of time, waste it on me."

His expression was soft, as if he was staring at something fragile that world mistook for titanium. His words hammering down on you, and you felt your legs going weak. His words, made your breath pause, and a sourness sting your nose. It made you feel like vomiting blood, and dying. So much pain, pierced through your chest as you felt the torment.

I don't even have time left, Bangchan...

He made tears sting your eyes, your heart race, it hurt so bad, but god damn, his face was all the salvation you needed, for all your pain. He made you feel like crying, like your heart will burst, like you were about to vomit blood, like-----

Waittttttttt...

Vomit blood? Your eyes widened, as you staggered back. Panic seized your chest, as your eyes stared at Bangchan's confused face as he stared at you with a hint of concern. The taste of blood hit your tounge like a bulldozer.

Damn, but your destiny had the most fucked up ways of reminding you your situation.