My Best Friend Eminem, My Love Marshall Mathers

Chapter twenty-nine

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Chapter twenty nine

Marshall’s POV:

            My legged jiggled up and down, uncontrollably, this is normal before ANY show. I was nervous for Natalia too; she has never done this before, will she know how to react to some of the jokes? How will she respond to some of the questions? I got to have some faith in my girl. I smiled at the thought how mentally she was my girl. I rubbed my hand against my face anxiously; thinking I got to concentrate on the show. My mind kept reverting back to her though, I wonder how she was going to look, we were kept in separate rooms, I hated being separated from her, so it wasn’t like I could go say hello to her, or good luck.

“Eminem you’re on, man” said the producer.

I got up from my head and walk to the beginning of the stage.

            “Rapper Eminem has been staring in a new film called Downtown Detroit a story about the harsh times during the early 90s staring a new face Natalia Trimmoushski…Wooh! What a mouth full of a name! But everyone here is Eminem!” The crowd clap as I came on stage, I wasn’t at ease, there has got to be a way to stop being so nervous. I shook hands with Jay Leno and sat down.

            “How’s it going? How’s it in Detroit?” asked Leno. My leg kept jiggling, “Going great man” I exclaimed. “Yes, now tell me something about the movie? Is Jonathan Bilback all he is?” ask Leno. “I tell ya, he is one of the men I would have respect for” I said. “He did a lot of well-known films” “yeah, yeah I watched a load of them growing up and their pretty…Dark and serious stuff” I said.

            “Yes, now tell me about Natalia, where this new face came about?” ask Leno. “Oh” I started smiling, “I just found her in Newark, and Bilback convinced her and her she is now. “She had a rocky start didn’t she so far?” asked Leno, “Well yeah, but she don’t know this kind of business, she is fresh out of college, this was unexpected for her” I said. “Yeah, she short tempered too” the crowd laughed how he said it, “Oh yeah, but under that she is this very outgoing, smart, sweet girl” I said. “What kind of name is Trimmoushski though?” ask Leno. I paused, “I don’t know…” the crowd laughed, “Polish that’s all I know” I said. Leno laughed, “Here is our supporting actress in the movie Downtown Detroit fresh and new to this business, all the way from the borough of Newark, New Jersey, fresh out of the University of Newark give a welcoming hand to Natalia Trimmoushski” the crowd clapped for her.

            I turned my head, I swear she looked amazing! Her body, her hair everything was amazing on her. She looked so different, her smile even looked different. Oh My God I think I’m in love, I grasp my hand against my heart, when Leno shake her hand and escorted her to her seat. In a trance, I got up from my seat, and stood in front of her. She smiled at me, “Em?” she said, “uhh, yeah?” I asked, “I need to sit down” she whispered. “Oh yes um, next to me” I took her hand and sat her next to Leno and next to me.

            Leno look awkwardly at me, “Well, Natalia, very nice too meet you” said Leno. “Aww, very nice too meet you! I’m a major fan!” she exclaimed. “How long you been a fan of the show?” “Stone age!” she said, the crowd laugh, “What you saying I’m old?” Leno asked. She laughed; her smile drove me crazy, she so calm, I’m so proud of her. I noticed my leg stopped jiggling, I felt relaxed and calm, and I can actually sit back in the chair and relax. I leaned back a bit and watched Natalia have a good time.

            “Now Natalia, you said you were a fan of Eminem’s songs and you wrote a rap for him when you were younger?” asked Leno. Natalia took a short pause, “Yes…I was going through that teenaged crisis, and I got the beats and the notes from Em’s songs, so I based my words off his beats.” The crowd laughed at her charm, “Did you ever think you’ll ever be working with Eminem, or even so much meeting him? Or becoming friends with him?” asked Leno. She giggled while her face turned red, “no” she gushed.

“Stick around we’ll be right back with Jonathan Bilback” said Leno. The show went to commercial.

            Natalia and I went back to the rooms, feeling anxious to see her and tell her how proud I’m of her, I went across the room. I went in and saw her massaging her feet from the tight shoes. I felt incredibly jumpy just seeing her, the way she was, I can’t hide this anymore. One day I’m just going to go crazy on her! “Hey” she said softly, “hey” I said back, I let a breath of air go. “You ok?” she chuckled, “Yeah, I’m…wonderful.” She laughed, “Natalia do you want to get something to eat after this?” I asked. What the fuck was I doing?! “Uh, sure I guess,” she sounded almost cold, “if you want,” “Nahh that’ll be nice” she said with a faint smile. I faintly smiled back, God, my heart pounded harder and faster than normal. I felt like it was going to pound out of my chest any moment now.

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            It was one in them morning when we were done with the show, there weren’t a lot of places open eventually we found a diner. I sat across from her at the table; her curly was tied back with strains falling from it. “I’m proud of you” I whispered, “thank you” she said softly back. I wasn’t sure what to say to her, I wanted my action to do all the work, “Natalia, would you…stay with me…if you could?” I asked her, what the hell?!! Her head pop up in surprise, “If you felt the same for me, I would, but you don’t…I don’t see any reason to stay then” she said softly. I took her hands and held them in mine, I wasn’t sure what to say, “Natalia, I know this isn’t what the life you wanted, but you can be what you worked hard for, you can still be a writer and still have your family, being with me won’t change that” I whispered. “But we can’t, I’m already in a relationship” I let go of her hands and sighed as I leaned back into the chair.

            “I do love you, Em” she said sternly, “but I’m not sure if you can love me back, I’ll always wait for you, but time is against you” she said. I sighed, and took her hands into mine; “I won’t lose you” her chest went up slightly as if she forgot to breath. “I don’t want to lose you, I love you too much” she whispered. I placed my hand on her cheek; “I know” I was struck of how soft my own voice can be. I rubbed my thumb against her cheek bones; she placed a light kiss on my palm. I began to feel tingles through my body, like lightening, breathing became hard to do. “Em?” she asked, “hmm?” looking into her eyes and saw for the first time their natural color, a grey color.

            “I will support you in all you do, I love your daughter very much, and my world has changed because of you” she whispered almost mute. “I feel the same too, I don’t feel like the same person I was, and I feel like I can live again, I feel as if…you erased my scares” I said softly, she smiled, “I’ll do whatever it takes to make you happy” I smiled and chuckled. “You make me happy, by just being alive” I said. I placed a soft kiss on her forehead, she kept her head down, I made close eye contact with her, “but we can’t be together” she said sadly. I felt something stir up in me, I felt my heart twist and turn at words I didn’t want to hear. “But I do want you” I whispered. “Keep a little faith in me, I’ll show you” I said. She placed a kiss on my lips which drove me crazy, the kiss lasted for a minute, even after the kiss I still had my eyes closed. She smoothed my hair back softly, “You never lost it in me, I won’t lose it for you.” I placed another kiss on her lips; it lasted longer.

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