NEO GOT MY BACK

Chapter 11- Donghyuck Comes to a Realization

Chapter 11- Donghyuck Comes to a Realization

Previously on NEO GOT MY BACK...

"You can't be in love with me," Donghyuck said. And he was spiraling out of control now, but he was too panicked to realize it. Mark stood there, watching him, and his concern for the omega was only growing. In all the time he has known, the younger Donghyuck has always been strong, vibrant, and full of life. He was never vulnerable around other people and always kept his cool no matter what. The younger man was a master of keeping on a mask of indifference or arrogance regardless of the situation. So to see him just fall apart like this was really something, and it wasn't something that Mark was fond of being a witness to. His heart hurt watching this, and Mark wanted to comfort Donghyuck and tell him everything was okay. He wanted Donghyuck to believe him and ease his insecurities and anxieties, but he knew it wasn't that simple. So Mark did the only thing he could think of; he walked over and wrapped Donghyuck up in his arms. The two of them sunk to the floor as a pile of limbs, and Mark just let the omega cry while trying not to break down. Maybe Donghyuck was right. Perhaps he has lost his mind?

Donghyuck still wasn't really sure what was going on here at the moment. Mark loved him? Mark Lee was in love with him? No matter how hard he tried, he still couldn't wrap his head around that statement being true. After all of these years, and the jokes, and the bickering, Mark loved him. Even after all those times that Donghyuck was horrible to him on purpose, he still loved him. He just can't figure out how.

The omega knows that he could be a real asshole about things sometimes. That he's stubborn and headstrong and a real loudmouth. He knows he's driven his older brother insane on more than one occasion. And from his time with the shrinks here at the Agency, he knows he has trust issues. Plus, he tends to push people he loves away because he's convinced that somehow he's poison. He's confident that he's a danger to those around him and tries to put as much distance between them as protection for them and himself because losing his parents has really messed him and Taeyong up.

Even though he's grown very attached to Mark and the other team guys, he's still scared of them. He loves all of them with his whole heart. But he doesn't want to lose them all. He's already lost his parents and almost lost Taeyong and Mark more than he can count. He doesn't want to lose them, but no matter how much he tries, he can't get them far enough. The shrinks tell him he's deluded himself into believing that if he can put enough distance between himself and the people that he loves, he can be able to protect them.

Donghyuck thought that all of that was a load of crap at first. But looking back on it now, he's starting to realize that maybe Irene-Noona was right. Here Mark is pouring his heart out to him, and Donghyuck is just standing there malfunctioning because he's too afraid that all of this is real. Will he ever admit that part out loud? Probably not, but he knows he needs to let his guard down sometimes and let in the people he knows matter to him. But it's hard, it's tough, and Donghyuck's not really sure if he can do that or not.

And while he's had dreams of Mark reciprocating his feelings towards him, he always thought that was it. A dream. But no, it's not just a dream; Mark really did love him. And Donghyuck really had no idea how to feel about that. There were so many emotions running through him at the moment he didn't know what to do with them. Finally focusing back into the real world, he could see Mark standing in front of him, the older alpha having a weird look on his face. And Donghyuck, not really knowing what to do and being so emotionally charged, tended to make really poor decisions. Typically, Renjun, Jaemin, or Taeyong could talk him down or distract him most of the time, but they weren't here now. And Mark could do so as well, but he was the source of the problem this time, so he didn't count. Donghyuck knew what he wanted to do. And he really wanted to do it; the consequences of his actions be damned. But he was too afraid of ruining his friendship with Mark over it.