More Than Anything | Bellarke (ENG)

Prologue

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*This is my book translated into English.I know there's a lot of mistakes but English isn't my first language so I would be grateful if you would correct me. And when you do that, for example in the comments, I'll immediately correct these mistakes in the book. Thank you and I wish you all the best.*

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So... Let's start with the fact that my name is Clarke Griffin. I'm a blue-eyed blonde of medium height. I live with my mother in a quiet and not too big village near the city. As for my father... Well... He was never in our lives. It's very painful for me, so let's stay with the fact that he's not with us.

This year will be my second year of attending a high school, my new school in a big city. I'll say one thing... This year seems to be much better than the previous one. Why? Because I had to spend the previous year alone at school. And speaking alone, I mean literally alone. I had a few friends, but they ignored me. Well, they were only interested in me when they wanted something from me... Like: homework, design, etc. Besides the little things, they didn't care about me at all. I sat alone in the corridor looking at the phone, listening to music and praying in my spirit that my battery wouldn't fall, because then I would've nothing to do. That's why I started carrying the charger to school.

But continuing. I have three of my closest friends... Octavia, Raven and Harper - who is two years younger than us. Octavia and Raven went to the same school and class together that year, so it was a bit easier for them. This year, however, Octavia enrolled in my school and class. Thanks to this, I can say that I have revived a bit.

It may seem to you that sitting alone under a class or in a bench is not such a tragedy, but well... For me, too, at the beginning it wasn't so, but later it changed. I didn't even have anyone to talk to even about any trifle, because the class ignored me. Well, to be honest, I'm a little shy so it certainly didn't improve my case. There were moments like... One of the guys in the class, Louise, mentioned something about a movie he had recently watched and told others about it. I decided that I would finally interfere, talk... You know what happened? They ignored me! Entirely! As if I didn't exist at all!

The first year of studying at a new school was really a nightmare for me! Sometimes I had the impression that I wouldn't be able to survive until the next day. My psyche sat down completely...

Cry every night and every time I was left alone. Nobody ever noticed it, because I put on a solid "mask". Nobody knew what I was really feeling... What a great pain I had in my heart and I didn't have the courage to admit it without hurting others...

The pain had reached such an extent that the only way I could forget about the mental pain was through physical pain. Yes... Unfortunately... When I couldn't do it anymore, I took one of the sharper "clips" and injured myself with it. It helped... But only for a moment so I often repeated it.

You may think I'm crazy, but well... That's the truth. When we don't see some things around us, it often ends in a tragic way.

Second year of study.

I was afraid of it... I was scared, like a bright damn thing. Until I was one hundred percent sure that Octavia will came to my school... The fear that I wouldn't be able to survive this year was unimaginable. It diminished when I heard the good news.

Our class consisted of thirteen people, seven girls and six boys. A lot, right? The smallest class in the school and probably in the whole city. Everyone praised us that we were very close... Yeah... Very... Shit true, but you already know this for the reasons mentioned above.

Mentally I was still suffering and still no one noticed it. Often, I managed not to think about it, because Octavia was next to me. We stuck together, went everywhere together and prepared for exams. Of course, we didn't forget about Raven or Harper and we did joint trips, overnight stays, etc. It was a bit... Better.

Later he appeared. Bellamy Blake.

The boy most girls at school were in love with and the boy people warned you to stay away from. He was very handsome, muscular, funny... And he was also a typical bad boy. His mini gang consisted of Monty - a thinking guy, Jasper- joker, Lincoln - a strongman, Shaw - a tech guy, and Murphy - Bellamy's right-hand man.

It was evident that Blake in particular relied on Murphy.

In the first year, I didn't pay much attention to Blake. Everyone warned me about him, so I tried to avoid any confrontation with him. I managed to do it for the first year... It was different in this one.

He was very interested in my person. Why?

You'll learn everything by reading my story.