My PauStell Munchkins | StellJun

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Summary: Paulo and Stell keeps on holding back their feelings towards each other thinking they both are trapped into an infamous 'unrequited love' situation.

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Notes: I'm drowning in PauStell's pining so bear with me. I've been searching for a song that would fit in this entry and shoot! I've found in my playlist the Paligoy-ligoy by Nadine Lustre and I think I could work on this a little bit. This is actually a PauStell version of Going Back to December yet my mind and hand joined forces again and everything just fallen into place.

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It's been a while since Stell keeps on stealing glances at the man beside him. He never said anything. He's just there standing beside his bestfriend, Paulo who's busy looking down the cliff. If someone might have seen him in his current state, they might have mistaken Paulo to jump over the cliff and Stell will never let that happen if Paulo is really thinking that way.

Paulo's right beside him, enjoying the alluring scenery from the valley; the steeps, the greener pasture, the canvas of the blue sky above and even the peaceful surroundings all so melodic because of the fresh air and the chirping of the birds. For Stell, nature is such a mystery and it's beautiful at the same time but as he glance at the man beside him, he's as enchanted as the nature itself.

"Bakit ganun? Hindi siya nakakasawang pagmasdan. Ano ba kasing mayroon sa kanya?" His inner self commented as he stole another glance at him.

Paulo's always been beautiful in his black hair with blonde streak in it and when Stell looks into his eyes, he suddenly feels lost in his shallow thoughts. He's been composed and consistent all of the time but with Paulo, he can't contain it. "Siya ang pahinga ko pero siya rin ang gumugulo sa isipan ko."

Stell can feel his eyes bored into his bestfriend and the uncomfortable flinches he makes every time his eyes landed on him and his face flushed after realizing he looks like a creep. Making Paulo uncomfortable is the last think he wanted to do.

"Argh! Nakakainis! Bakit ba kasi ang ganda niya?" He's kind of frustrated as his mind flashes Paulo's small face, his beautiful orbs, his bright smile—and he paused after that thinking how whipped he is and he's so done.

Safe to say, he's really attracted to him but to Stell's dismay, he doubt if Paulo feels the same way. He pursed his lips while his playing with his fingers. They're both in a vacation and instead of joining with Justin, Josh and Ken, the two of them ended up trailing around their favorite place and camping site.

He sighs as he heard Josh in his head. "Stell, kailan mo ba balak sabihin sa kanya? Kailan mo pa iyan naramdaman?"

He tilted his head. "Kailan nga ba?"

His heartbeat suddenly quickened. He doesn't know nor remember any. All that he knows is that he felt it for quite some time already. It's been five years since he keep it all by himself, afraid to ruin everything. It's been five years where his feelings grow like roses started to bloom in Sahara Desert yet every time his thoughts wanders, those roses reminded him that its thorns were short but sharp; enough to blend with the red liquids in his heart.

"Stop staring. Baka matunaw pa ako niyan." Paulo suddenly spoke. "Joke lang."

Startled, Stell gulped and laugh sheepishly. "S-Sira! Hindi kaya ako nakatitig sa'yo. Assuming mo masyado."

Paulo rolled his eyes, clearly not believing him. "Okay. Supposedly I didn't catch you fifteen times."

Stell snorted. "Ay, wow! Binilang mo pala? Ganun kadami?"