Love, Life And The Band

50. I'am so sorry

[Chapter 50 what the hellll?!]
Tw: death⚠️

Julie's pov.
I lay in bed talking with Luke about the reveal.
"I'm sad that Carla didn't come" I explain
"I know weird?" He rubs over my belly.
"She could've atleast tell me that she can't come" I sigh.
"I pretty sure that there is a reason behind that" he says while laying down in bed making it comfy.
"I hope she is okay"
"She will be fine. Don't worry" Luke takes his laptop.
"I have to check up on some work is that okay?"
"Sure" I say and take a book from my nightstand. In the moment I leaned foreword I feel something moving. I sit up.
"You alright?" Luke asks.
"She kicks!" I smile at him and he puts his hand on my belly.
"I don't feel anything" he says.
"That's normal. Babys start kicking and moving at about 5 months it's not visible from outside yet" I explain what I rode in my book.
"Oh" he says but leaves his hand on my belly.
"Hello princess. Please kick harder so I can see" he speaks to the baby.
"Haha please not" I laugh.
"She stopped anyway." I say and get comfy to read my book.

"glick, glick glick ggglick" I hear and open my eyes. It's Luke on his laptop again.
"Good morning beautiful" he says and kisses my nose.
"How late is it?" I ask.
"9am"
"Ughhhh so earlyyyy" I complain
"It's not early."
"It is for me. Feels like I only got 3 hours of sleep." I yawn and sit up and need to pee. So I get up and walk to do my thing. After that I walk past Dahlias room and I see her playing with stuffed animals.
"Good morning my flower" I say and she hugs me.
"Morning mommy" she kisses my belly and then we walk to get Rose. We all 3 walk back in my room.
"Good morning girls!" Luke says and kisses them. I help Rose on the bed and we all cuddle a while till it's time to start the day. We spend the rest of the day drawing and playing and eating. At 4pm I feel super exhausted and tired so I decide to take a nap on the couch.

Luke's pov.
Julie fell asleep. And I cover her with a blanket and walk into the kitchen with the girls as I hear the Doorbell. Who could that be? I open up and see Carla?!
"Uhm hi Carla?"
"Hi sorry is Julie home?"
"Yes but she is sleeping" I explain and she looks sad.
"But uh come in she will be awake hopefully soon" I say and let her come in and we walk into the kitchen.
"Wow I love the new house" she says and hugs Dahlia and Rose.
"Do you want some coffee or tea?" I ask but she shakes her head.
We sit down at the table and draw with the girls.
"So uhm how was the tour?" She asks.
"Great it was a great experience" I tell her and she nods. She really looks sad and miserable.
"I mean I can wake Julie up if you want." I say because she seems stressed.
"Uhm yes please" she says and I get up and walk to the living room.
"Julie? Julie? Wake up" I say patting her head.
"Mhmmm" she mumbles.
"Carla is here" I say and she sits straight up.
"Huh?" She gets up and we walk in the kitchen.

Julie's pov.
I haven't seen Carla since before the fire. She hasn't changed but she looks sad. She hugs me and looks at my belly confused and sad.
"Omg Julie! Congratulations!" she says and I wrinkle my forehead.
"Didn't you get my text and the gender reveal invention?"
"What invention and what text? No sorry Julie i didn't know"
"Oh it's okay, so uhm surpriseee" I say shaking my hands in the air and I sit down next to Carla. I take her hands.
"What is wrong Carla?" I ask and she looks out of the window. She looks so sad.
"Sorry that I didn't call and text you anymore" she starts.
"Hey it's okay I'm sorry too" I excuse.
"You okay? Where is Tessa?" I ask. She is usually never without Tessa. Is she with her father? Carla sighs and I see tears in her eyes.
"Luke? Can you please leave us alone for a little bit?" I ask and he nods and takes the girls with him.
"Thanks" Carla says while staring at the wall. What is going on?
"Carla? What happend?" I ask and rub over her hand with my thumb to show her that I listen. She finally looks me in the eyes and all I see is pure sadness. What the hell happend?
"Tessa she- she passed away." Carla cries and I look at her in shock.
"WHAT?"
"I didn't text you anymore after she got diagnosed with a tumor. I- i'm sorry" she cries.
"What?" My hand shakes.
"Why didn't you tell me?" I ask.
"I wanted to but I didn't had any time I was so busy to be with her for the last few months. She passed away 5 days ago." I feel tears in my face and get us a box of tissues.
"I-omg I'm so sorry Carla" I say and give her a big hug. She stays in my hug for a while and we both cry.
"I haven't slept anything for the last 5 days, i can't stop thinking about her." she explains and I take her hand and walk with her upstairs in my room.
I point her to lay down and I put a blanket over us both. She cuddles into me still crying.
"It's okay let it all out. I'm here for you." I rub her arm and after a few minutes her breathing gets slower and she falls asleep in my arms.
Why does cancer always take the best people on earth away from us? It's not fair!
I feel my eyes get tired and fall asleep too.

I wake up before Carla I look at the clock it's 1am. Wow we slept long. Luke isn't here so he probably sleeps in the Guestroom. I try to get up without waking her but she opens her eyes.
"Sorry I gotta go pee" I whisper and she nods. I walk out and go to the toilet I come back and see Carla looking at my latest ultrasound picture that was on my nightstand. I crawl under the blanket again. And she rubs over my belly.
"I'm very happy for you" she says.
"Thank you it's a little miracle"
"It is" she says and puts the photo away.
"Thanks for being here for me" She says .
"Of course Carla" I say and turn the nightstand light off.

Carla spends the rest of the week with us. I help her grief and she looks a little bit better now. Of course it's going to take a long time to heal.
"I'm going to go home today" she says while we eat lunch.
"You don't have to" Luke says.
"Thanks but I can't stay here forever." She explains and after we finished she packed a few of her things she got from me and we hug for goodbye.
"Please call me when you get home and come over if you need something. We're here for you" I explain and she nods and walks to her car. I close the door and Luke pulls me into a big hug.
"You have the biggest heart I know" he says and presses a kiss on my forehead.
"Carla doesn't deserve this." I cry.
"No one does no one" he says and kisses my head. I sigh. I feel so so bad for Carla.