Love, Life And The Band

7. i miss you

Julie's pov:
Here it is, the worst day of the year. The day my mom passed away. This was the first thing that came my mind as soon as I woke up. Today exactly 2 years ago my mom made her way up to heaven. It doesn't get easier. Even though it's been 2 years. I wish I could sleep all day. But I can't, today is rehearsal day. Usually I'm pretty excited but not today. After I got ready I walk downstairs. I see my dad reading the newspaper on the kitchen table.
"Morning dad" I say.
"Morning mija"
"I'm in the studio, rehearsing with the boys"
"Okay"
No one of us says something about what happend 2 years ago. And it's better that way. I walk to the studio.
"Hey Julie" Reggie says in a happy mood. Good for him. He doesn't know what day it is and it should stay like that. I don't want anyone to know.
"Ready for rehearsal?" Luke asks.
"Yup" I say. I set up my microphone and keyboard.
"So what song do we start today?" Alex asks.
"What about wake up?" Reggie asks. We made a new version of this song back a few months ago. But please not that song today.
"Good idea" Luke says. Oh no. Alex you're my only hope for now. Please say no.
"Yeah let's go" Alex says. Ughhhhh. Fineee.
"Okay" I say starting to play the first few notes. I stopped I just can't do that today.
"What's wrong?" Alex asks.
"I-sorry guys I can't do that today" I run out of the studio.

Luke's pov:
"JULIE!" I yell. But she already left the studio.
"Did we do something wrong?" Reggie asks.
"I don't know. I'll go look if she's okay" I run out of the studio. I meet Ray in the kitchen.
"Have you seen Julie?" I ask
"No" he says without even looking at me. What is wrong today? Everyone seems so moody and sad.
I walk upstairs to Julies room but I couldn't find her. I looked everywhere in the house and the garden.
"And did you find her?" Alex asks.
"No" I say.
"Maybe she just wants to be alone" Alex says.
"Yeah maybe, I'm just worried" I say.
We all sit in the studio in the hopes that Julie comes back soon. But the time went by and Julie didn't come.
"Guys it's been 3 hours, I can't wait any longer" I say.
"Yeah let's split up and search for her" Alex says.
"Reggie, what if you stay here and wait! I look around school and Al you can look at Flynns?" I ask.
"Yeah okay" Reggie says.
"See ya" I walk out of the studio on my way to Julie's school. I look around the school (obviously only outside, cause it's Sunday and no school yk)
But I couldn't find her.
"JULIEEE" I yell.
Where is she?
After searching and screaming I make my way back.
"JULIEE!" I yell again.
"Oh hello young man. Who are you searching for?" A old man says.
"Hello, I'm sorry I'm searching for my girlfriend. Have you seen a girl with black curly hair and a dress on?" I ask him.
"Oh yeah yeah. I think. I just walked over there and I saw a girl running and crying. I asked what's wrong but she didn't hear me. She ran to the dahlia field like 5 min away from here"
After the man told me where to go I made my way to the dahlia field.
After a little while I finally found the field. It looks beautiful. So many dahlias in different colors. I walk around the little field as I hear someone quiet crying. And then I see her. Sitting in the middle of the field crying with her head on her knees. I walk up to Julie and sit next to her. I pat her back. And she looks at me with her crying face.
"Hey, what's wrong?" I ask.
"Nothing"
"Hey, I'm here for you" I tell her.
"I know, thanks."
We both went silent for a little while you could only hear a few sniffs from Julie.
"So what is wrong?" I ask again.
"You don't have to tell me but maybe it would help. And I'm a good listener" I say.
"It's something stupid" Julie says.
"It's just-I it's my moms death day"
"Oh. I didn't know that. I'm sorry"
"It's alright" she says.
"But why is it something stupid?" I ask her.
"I should be over it. I should move on. But I just can't."
"Oh Julie! Don't say that. Losing someone is hard. You can't just move on and forget after 2 years. That's ridiculous. You loved her and you still do. It's normal that it still hurts." I give her a side hug.
"I know. It's just not easy" she says
"I know" I say.
I take a dahlia and give it behind Julie's ear. She finally gives me a little shy smile.
"Why didn't you tell us?" I ask her.
"I just don't want anyone to remind me, and to treat me different and I don't know" she says.
"Hey it's okay. We're all here for you"
"I know, thanks" she says.
I pull her in a big hug.
"This is the place where me and my mom used to go every year at this time" she tells me.
"It's beautiful here" I say.
"It is, she loved it"
"We should go back. Everyone is worried about you" I say.
"Yeah okay let's go"
I take her hand and we walk back home.

Julie's pov:
As soon as me and Luke got home, I
Talked to the guys. They didn't say anything and I'm grateful for that. I decided to go up to my room. I sit down on the floor leaning my back on the wall. I close my eyes and try to remember moms voice. But i just can't remember it. I slowly started crying again. I rest my head on my knees. I cry all of my anger, frustration and pain away, again! Why can't i just stop crying and smile through the pain. In between my crying i heard my bedroom door open. And someone sitting next to me.
I don't look up I just continue crying.
"Hey it's okay" Alex says.
"Yes Julie we're here for you" Reggie says. How many people are in here?!
I feel them hugging me from both sides.
"I love you guy's" i say
"Here a tissue" Luke says.
"Thanks" I clean my nose and after that the boys got a me glass of water and some snacks. We all sat on the floor for hours. I told them all about my mom, it felt good. We even laughed a lot at some random memories from me and mom. I love them all so much. And it felt good.
"I truly don't know what I would do without you guys!" I say.
"Probably still crying" Reggie says.